the Keepsakes of a Suegarplum Faery

1000 Offerings Event 2009

2009-10-30T16:34:00.006+08:00

Coin Offerings tothe 35 Buddhas

thousands of offferings literally!!

some of the exco / 1k Offering committee at work

Giant Gilded Prayer Wheel! Om Mani Padme Hum....

entrance of the Chinese Assembly Hall

standing here is Venerable Sonam in swooshing robes

Venerable Khunken assisting Khenrinpoche with Gold-Leafing! :)

Kherinpoche Lhundrup Rigsel, Abbot of Kopan Monastery making coins offering to 35 Buddhas :)

from left to right :- Eric Gan (centre director of Losang Dragpa Centre) , Khenrinpoche, & Geshe Tenzin Zopa

overdued Penang postings....

2008-10-09T01:39:00.007+08:00

and well back to the previous penang postings, my ex-colleagues and i visited temple after temple, u name it from the Kek Lok Si temple, to the oldest Kuan Yin Temple in Georgetown, Penang to this one, didnt manage to get good pics from the former but this wasnt really great either! this was sumthing we visited on the 2nd day after a bloatsome buffet breakfast at Sunway Hotel, Penang Island..

i could hear a disgruntled Jon reluctantly ferrying us places in his zippy red Myvi...... (*shuyii pokepokes Jon*)

well he got to visit Midlands Mall in the end to shop for his transformers... so there!
*jon pulls a sulky face*

by day's end at Kek Lok Si temple, after having our dinner at the famed Ayer Itam Asam Laksa, his face was longer than a bittergourd's, haha! and i am amused, sHnapping away! *smiles gleefully*

well, without further ado ofcourse : -

entrance of the Thai Buddhist temple, its glorified gilded gate greeting us all!

got these sleepyheads posing for me...(note the tongue-in-cheek look on Ken's expession!)

bright sunshiny rays catching a rare sparkle on the crown of the stupa

lastly but no least, finally a shot with me in it
the shuyii on the far left, Kian, Danny, Kim & Ken (Jon is m.i.a AGAIN!)

and i do notice for the past few postings... i am kinda like a *portrait-liking-person... for at least most of my shots are composed that way, (and i have no idea why!!)
didn't realise that till a friend of mine pointed out my portrait-tendency while we went shooting interesting sights in Malacca last Raya holidays! more pics to come next..

i hope i will be finished by the weekend for the KLPac posting as i will be busy on 11th & 12th October 2008 for the 1000 Offering Event organised by LDC (Losang Dragpa Centre) at the Chinese Assembly Hall from 10am - 9pm! please do all feel free to come! :D

Kek Lok Si temple, Ayer Itam

2008-09-30T01:12:00.003+08:00

here are the remaining pictures taken at Kek Lok Si temple at Ayer Itam, Penang Island! I very much look forward to visit this particular temple , (much to Jon's chagrin) particularly during the Chinese New Year celebration for their Lights and Lanterns displays... Hundreds or THOUSANDs of these beautiful red & yellow lanterns made up the vibrant display of lights which filled the night's sky and the temple's exterior with an air of warmth, evoking the festive mood, truly an awesome sight to behold!

a random shot at the foot of the temple... testing out my shutter speed, flash & camera settings..

here's kim, my first subject for a night shot! :)

we were greeted with strings and strings and more of these red lanterns when we approach the Grand Prayer Hall...

Kek Lok Si Temple, flanked by strungs of colourful lit lanterns & fairy lights! :)

a different view of the same building....

My favourite shot of the batch as it emphasises symmetry, just tad dissapointed as the tip of the tower's cropped off...

Spot the S.I buddies!!!!!!!! :) :D

Reminiscent of Funfair Grounds, fairy lights, the sweet burnt smell of caramel popcorn, pink Cottoncandies, Juggling Clowns on stilts, the familiar tune of carnival music tinkling, children's laughter in the background...

another view taken at the base near the parking lots.....no flash in this shot so gotta hold real still in the wind's chill! *shivers my timbers*

with little flicker of lights from the bustling streets coiling and meandering its way up to the temple

and lastly, the S.I Buddies! clockwise :- Jon, Danny, Kian, Kim & Ken
m.i.a : ME (cos i photograph!) teheee!

upcoming Kek Lok Si posting.....

2008-09-29T11:30:00.005+08:00

bringing you a sneak peeek of the Kek Lok Si temple posting, made this trip with some ex-colleagues during the Chinese New Year break, (yes that was a good half a year back/more!!)

resembling Ripen tomato patch!

view from below, clusters of neatly arranged Mandarin Oranges to commerate the Chinese New Year celebration :)

nikon d80 debut appearance

2008-09-19T00:22:00.006+08:00

a few experimental shots.. some shaky ones as my hands detects a sudden shift in weight from the nifty *icKle Canon S3 IS to the robust Nikon D80.. please bear with me and do feel free to C&C... ten Qs.

do clicky for larger clearer images
light & flower offerings at temple in Kepong on Mooncake Festival

Buddha's altar laden with fruit, MoonCookies, waterbowls & pretty Chrysanthemum arrangements

way to the chambers........

t o k i d o k i

2008-09-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

has a thorough week at The Company after just 2.5weeks..workload's piling by the seconds, bearing heavier responsibilities day by day, insufficient time to breakdown the details, digest, absorb.. reminding myself "this IS getting myself quickly adapting to the waythings are done here as soon as possible so my workflow will be smoother....."

anyway.. i left office considerably early today , 8 pm as previous weeks i been continuously reaching home by 9 - 10pm, which kinda boggles mum because she will be asleep on the couch by then and every morning the conversation starts off figuratively like this : -

"what time you'd reach home last nite?"
or
"why i didn't notice that you were back?"

thats prolly the only time we're be able to catch up on weekdays as she will religiously send me to the lrt station everymorning and the ride barely last up to 5 mins if the traffic's smooth....with audible "ummms" and "yeahs"along the way... :P

had a lovely time with the gurls, Est & Wen tonite. we are all quite tangled & troubled with problems of our own but nothing beats spending some quality time with the girls after 2 weeks of insanity! wen seemed preoccupied & troubled though, it was very unlike of her to behave that way. nonetheless the tension soon melted away as we chatted away munching on slices of Izzi's Clive's pizza. (wish i'd taken a few pics... but was too hungry to notice!) all in all, i'd had a great time with the girls.. and hope we will meet soon when they are less caught up with papers and work for another round of baking, hopefully with Waiyee along this time!
who has a fab tiramisu recipe to offer?! :)

on another note...

have you come across something robust, poky and tubby and so uber adorable u wanna hug it?!

i lurvvvve these lil cacti pups from t o k i d o k i so much!!! :) consists of a gazillion many other cutesy characters, so do go check it out here !

awwww! wanna hug *em all esp the tiny green one!! so poky like fuzzy's cactus!! *chuckles*

Dagri Rinpoche at LDC

2008-09-08T23:47:00.008+08:00

here is the posting as promised on the "Hayagriva Vajrapani Garuda" initiation at LDC held on the 21st of August 2008!

clickies on images for a larger view!
the unrelated blue bloom again. we used this for blessing for one part of the initiation...

the initiation begins with an introduction by the two Anilas , our interpreters for the night

Dagri Rinpoche

a close up of Dagri Rinpoche. This respectable guru smiles every now and then and injects lil amusing anecdotes throughout the initiation and teaching....

more pics of this Guru in the next pose. stay tuned! *hugs*

a lil note......

2008-09-04T00:29:00.005+08:00

a u r o r a b o r e a l i s

to Chun, Lim, Angela, Mei Jih.. thanks for Making my 2nd day bearable for as of today! :D :D *really needed that to keep my sanity intact*

more on LDC's Seminar piccies

2008-09-02T20:56:00.005+08:00

here's a follow up of yesterdays posting. +on my first day at The Company, i cant say nothing much. Its too early to tell as i'm merely a week old there! nonetheless The Colleagues are not bad, albeit I was disappointed to find more young designers instead of seniors.

well without further ado, here's introducing Mighty Jourdan! smiles, Laughter and fun in this lil boy! do not underestimate his size! he's got enough under his cheeky smile to bring the rainbow out of the gloomy skies! :) :D

and boy, he sure does love to read!

& the Giant Gilded Prayer Wheel

playing a short clip i'd missed to watch, but it was definitely on "Dying"

my sister and her latest poster boy! :P

i found a pixie hidden in my garden! and i spotted it in between the wispy folds of this lil fuchsia bloom! can you spot it?! :)

Seminar on "Dying" at LDC by Geshe Tenzin Zopa

2008-09-01T22:53:00.006+08:00

I'd mentioned a week ago that I would post some piccies taken during the "Hayagriva Vajrapani Garuda" initiation at LDC, but before i get to that, let me post some of the pics which were taken at the seminar held on the 2nd August 2008@LDC discussing on the topic "Dying". Basically its a talk on preparatory steps, the dos & don'ts before, during and after someone's death (asides from preparing a will, getting a tuft up some location with a picturesque hilltop scenery or selecting the box u wanna be sleeping in after u've heaved ur last breath?)

not something you get everyday, the talk of dying as for some cultures out there, it may even be regarded as a taboo. Nonetheless there was a huge turnup and I was one of the very few equipped with a camera... so here i go shooting whilst something's really serious being discussed there....

-clicky on the images for a larger view-
Introducing the person who introduces us to the introduction of the above-mentioned topic, our dearest Guru :- Geshe Tenzin Zopa!

effectively expressing the "Grasping" expression using hand gestures during the talk!

students listening attentively at the Gompa..spot Ken Ken in the background (lols)

lotus flower in focus with the beautiful Green Tara in the background

Green Tara flanked by beautifully painted mural, cherry blossoms, food offerings and such!

Devoted students :- from left - right, Aunty Candy's hubby, Mrs.Gan & Mr.Chua

there' re more pictures in my pc which i'd like to share, but i'll leave that for another day's posting since its freaking too early to stay online, not to mention... i'd need my snoozies for a fresh start tomorrow! keep u guys posted next few days with pics.

toodles now. bLwekk. hopefully battery doesn't kong by 11am tomorrow!!

(its my first day at The Company tomorrow so all i'd gotta tell myself is... "break a Leg"!)

nites buddies! <3>

Borobudur Trip - Cancelled

2008-08-22T04:38:00.005+08:00

yes yes, the latest update and the much-most-very-looked-forward-to Borobudur trip's been called off.

i'm let-downed,

dissapointed,

& feeling much distressed, but life goes on. & i am picking up pieces of my life which i have been missing and meaning to do all this while (given the excuses of *Busy* or *Occupied* or *Tired* even *Lazy* inapplicable during this unemployed state..)

just back from LDC from a very long initiation and here's a teaser of what i am going to post,
(thought its taken during but not related really to the initiation)

(clicky to enlarge)

More piccies taken at LDC tomorrow, its too early now and i need to rest my heavy bulbous head. yoga & core classes are giving me muscle aches everywhere!!!

nitezZzZz.....

Endless Waiting...

2008-08-01T00:54:00.004+08:00

well, its finally August!i haven't posted anything here for ages now as there's still a bunch'a unedited photographs from prev. vacations/excursions.

(not to mention i still owe Ming some pics from previous vacation trip we went during June!) *chews nails*

its about 2 weeks from now till we'll see more postings here! i have been stuck since Bali'06, *gasp* so much for procastinating!!!!!

in short, this year's been a slow torturous rollercoaster ride for me, you feel like u wanna sit back and enjoy the ride, but u wait endlessly for the sudden jerk of a turn, or the big dip upfront, the triple loop u'll like so much to scream ur necks off for it.

then i thought, hell like i'll wait.. i'll catch another rollercoaster!

look forward to see Borobudur by this months' end and a brand new beginning afterward! the pilgrimage should bring a good start if not a very promising one.

toodles!

Red Devil

2008-07-13T01:38:00.002+08:00

this ickle devil wouldn't stop fluttering about when i was trying to get a shot of it!!!

Merry Christmas To You!!

2007-12-24T20:09:00.000+08:00

Bongsen by SI Design

2007-08-10T03:55:00.000+08:00

i miss my viet cold vermicelli!!!!!!! tried this one at Bongsen@KLCC on Friday night after a long day@work. Packed with an assortment of carrots,cucumber,pickle carrot in sweet-ish vinegar,fragrant ground peanuts, fresh beansprout, thinly sliced lettuce strips, arranged neatly in lil turfs on a bed of cold rice vermicelli, topped with lemongrass grilled chicken strips,this meal packs freshness into a (HUGE!) bowl! (pricily priced at approx RM 16!). at the end of dinner, my puny belly bloated to about 3 times its usual size! (my dinner portions are usually ONe-third!)

tmrw is friDay! wanna go midvalley to have my salad noodle (as how fuz calls it)!!!! yummy yums! & time to sleep now, just completed a portion of my drawings. head to my snoozLes now.

the day i came back to blog.

2007-08-02T01:34:00.001+08:00

i logged in my blog a week ago and find my layout incomplete with images as broken links. sObs* how'd that happened while i am away? gRr. will have to stick with a template from blogger's in the meantime. im back the the photography scene, at least for these few weeks. get honed for the bali trip we'd been planning for late sept! and many concurrent events here and there at LDC. sadly i am going to miss the Thousand Light Offering (again) for the 2nd year straight! how dreadful. wish i could convince the exco-s to resched or sth, lols! or even hope the dates in tibetan calendar shuffles (almost too miraculously to be happening, even Buddha cant help much in this!)

i blogged this day, and today and no other day because i want to remember today as the day i was given a reminder. something to keep my head occupied with a difficult decision to make. sumthing that definitely confirms the existence of my doubts and uncertainty.
hearing it from a 3rd party confirms that.
it was in the back of my head all along.
but i needed that lil prodding
that lil.reminder..

the lil.sth that confirmed my fear.
fear of negligence.
fear of being substituted.
fear of being disposed of.
fear of being dismissed.

confirms i need to pull up my socks.

otherwise. confirm neglected. confirm substituted, confirmed disposed and confirmed dismissed. and confirm die.die.

lethargic.

2007-03-03T02:28:00.000+08:00

so its almost the end of the 2week long celebration for cny.
gone rounder? very much!!!
all from the excessive makan sessions at fren's place, relative's,our own reunion new year's eve (a MUST every year!- and we play host) - thats about 24 hours straight ofsteamboat's worth!

not to mention feeling so bad for threwing up my lunches two days backs in a row, they could have gone to much hungrier tummies. festive seasons oways an excuse for wastage, thrwoing unfinished food and such. and i hate mamak! im gonna ignore mamak for as long as i remember having my head half buried in the bowl painstakingly emptying my bowel. i felt like a drab. sourish after-taste in my tongue. i remembered it like its still on my tongue! yikey!

will be posting my post(or pre-)nauseating pics soon (when i was in Tioman with colleagues and were well fed and seasoned - yes note my new tanned tint!)

waking early to watch Charlotte's Web tmrw with fuz. sitting next to piggy watching another! whoops. speaking of the year of the oiNk, im determined to work my way out of my piGgy state -its hurting my ego that fuz is starting to workout at gym while im dreamily wishing the spare tyres to roll away by themselves one fine sunny day! whaM*! back to reality!

but i gotta be heading to pig now, its almost 3am! nitesy!

Fire Me Up! im bored!

2006-12-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

*clicky on image for full size*

lazy to post! have only the energy to post one pic! awaiting me are the annual dinner pics i helped photographed on Friday 22nd nite. i wonder if i needed to ask for permisssion shud i wish to post a few here.. mmmm

parents were back from jiuzhaigou, and bangkok lately. and my life's been short of everything except interesting. Life's updates = Zilch.

i should prolly look forward to photoblogging about my parents' trips, but getting to kickstart with editing is just ENOUGH to kill my enthusiasm. *yikeys*

more updates by friday the latest i hope! i cant wait for Saturday cos its Sze Thein's wedding!! she's the first in the Chin's family to be married actually! :):)

>.<>.<

a visit to LDC :)

2006-12-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i actually had time to read blogs, lest update my own! i have been to places though, met people, get involved in activities but when i finally got home to my home sweet home, the only energy left was to brush my teeth, wash up my grimy face and tuck myself in bed. at times i get dreams, and those were the times when i wake up huffing puffing, as though i had chased myself in the perimeters of my room, other times i woke up with a jolt, like dodging the monster under my bed! went to the Losang Dragpa Centre in SS17 last Sunday to witness the Buddha Relics myself, have heard Khan numerous times on how miraculous it is. havent got the pics to show u what i meant but do read up more on it at the Centre's official webbie, more here & here!!!!

(click pics if u need a clearer view)

pretty butter candle offerings, they smell almost too delicious, they can be eaten! :P these are found in abundance at the altar or offering tables. can be bought at RM 10 each and all funds raised are proceeded to the centre :) i prayed for safety, health and happiness for my family and my loved ones. Nice nice smelling caNdles!

these comes with the candle and flowers! and too pretty i HAD to take a shot of it, though i reckon its rude to be snapping near the altar, (thats why i refrained from getting myself and my lense too near to the relics!)
the golden stupa! to be frank i wasnt sure what this is for, but i recall it houses the 10 (or isit 10,000k) powerful mantras? (well,if someone who noes,just correct me oRites :P) i dropped by the centre a few times now, but havent gotten so familiarised yet. its great fun there tho, staying to help whenever i can and meeting new people. the funny thing about meeting people in an environment as this, it leaves me a warm and fuzzy feeling. the sense of belonging. the sense of being together, and the sense of able to connect even through a simple smile :) good things do CErtainly doesnt need to come oin big packages! :P

these days, i have hardly the luxury to smile wistfully at myself thinking back the contented times, those frens, those places, those occasions. the laughters that still ring in ur head, the smiles thats etched in the back of ur mind, the things we were used to doing, that now we arent, it feels like ages ago, yet it was just a year back.

by making an effort to visit the centre once a week, maybe there's hope after all. brings light back to my dull, work-worn life .

*back to my snoozles, and miND i NEED it so much*

don expect me to update so often now, may be a bi-monthly thing i foresee.

butterfly, bee oR butteRbee!?

2006-11-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

pretentious eh? :P

had a long day toDay, to be continued tomorow. gonna be a random post ( and dont whine that i dIDn't WARN u)

wishIng for aQuaMariNe sKies agaiN! :>

2006-10-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

posting this pic of the blue aquamarin-sh flower i shot at penang for slurp! but he's like missing in action, off for holiDay! bahagia sungguh! :P prev posts on Penang trip included a macro shot of this flower, click here.

havent the time to snHapps pix these days, been up at work most of the hours of the day, and further to that, the weather simply doesnt allow it either! pray for blUe skIes again,, i miss my morning walks, im slowly acquiring the spare tyRe around the existing one Oredy!!!! *poke*poke* no feel wan..saturated liaos

its moNday tomorow, dread again (blImey!*)

have a gOod Week people! :>

::: refresh :::

2006-10-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

when ur eyes tire from looking at the bleak flatness around u, look out for greens! (not outdoors ofcos!) :> i refresh each time by looking at my desktop, its there as my wallpaper :D :D :P have a goOd weekend peeps!!! :>

Motion Blur (not HAZE blur!) ;P

2006-10-14T18:22:00.000+08:00

since the city's been shrouded in haze recently, and my camera's been under the sheets for few darn weeks. an ex-colleague of mine just called and asked me if i m interested to join him for shotting tomorrow at Bkt. Jalil,and i had to decline him because im catching the movies tomorow! im going shooting next week hopefully, and i hope the weather's finer by then! i hate bleak, grey, depthless quality pictures.

pictures are taken sumtime last month before the haze craze, inspiRed by Motion! :)

a lantern festival event held at Puay Chai Primary School. Parents, kids throng in with lanterns!

testing my night taking shots here, i didnt realise someone running across till i edited the text earlier! i was standing very still taking this shot, with a very slow shutter speed~!

younger sis blocking her face from view, she;s camera shy By Nature!

blocking her face again with her favourIte stuffed Smurf! can u tell if its sHrinking or ExpandiNg?

a Car captured speeding past, leaving a trail of taillight behind! :)

@Prince Cafe :>

2006-10-07T17:41:00.000+08:00

pics were taken last satuRday ( at a newly opened Prince Cafe in Ss2 ) maybe not so new, but since i am slowpaced, and not in tuned with my changing surroundings, i'd take it as new, siNce me and wen havent tried that place yet.

its my 1st time meeting wen siNce the prev time before i started work! we were at f.r.i.e.n.d.z cafe that time, with tyuen and jkhan.

we'd decided to make it a girl's nite since those guys been goin out but'd not bothered to ring us up as well

the place turn out to be very much like hyped-Hongkie type of cafes. the food was not bad, better than i had expected. as it was oredy past 9,we sampled on a serving of the Pork Chop burger, which is one of the top ten topsellers, (but unforch, the pics had not turned out well, so i'd rather not post em*)

i like wen's smoothie! the taste of strawberry is so fresh, yet tangy, yet not tasting like the concentrate type thats either too sweet or too sour.

yummy! and thats my Mango & Passionfruit Smoothie, the two flavours blends up to be a very nice chilling combination! the texture is fine-blended, and doesnt clump in icebergs. JuIcy! definitely not for the brain-freezers! i thoroughly enjoyed it, every Sip! :>

i havent been to places for so long, and i would normally shun places like Wongkok cos' its too noisy, this place is just right, wit the right ambience, lighting and decor wise.

we headed back home after ta pau-ing the Pork and Vege Dumpling Soup Noodle for my sis. its quite like the very famed Ramen in Dragon-i but the taste lacks in this aspect, bland tasting. im in for full flavours, with a certain ooooMPh or kick*! that is a no -no for me. my sis on the other hand find it okay and slurped it all up in a few bites!

i want so much to update Bali,but my photoshop has turned Cranky for now! it keeps hanging when i wanna edit my image sizes! Bali will be up as soon as photoshop's fixed! till then, hang on in there guys! :P:P see ya in a jiffy and a great weekend to y'all!*muakz*!

late updates.......

2006-09-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

its my 2nd week of work in The Company to count today!!
i feel like i couldnt handle the traumas of working life yesterday that i told my mum my tastebuds are too tired they couldnt taste any of the d-Licious dinner she cooked.

i wanna wear off my bones off my back and beat them hard so it would pain so much, that it numbs the soreness i was feeling.... (such exagggeration!)

then Mum said, " Must ask Dad to get u a Massage Chair edi........"

woots!!!

i thought in commercials, it was the children who got their parents massagechairs instead~

i was like... *blimey* =S "......"

here are the overdue-d Penang pics( and its Day 3 out of 4day vacation) that i promised, i dont feel much like posting them, since they were so long ago, and i cant think of anything to write about either, it was ancient!

but i'll postie anyway, cos its been in the drafts for some time now, and uploading them was time-consuming so it will just be silly to hit the DEL button on the keyboard ( though in the back of my lazy mind, i AM tempted!!)lol

enjoy anyway! :)

our first destination, Bukit Bendera! its pretty serene and quiet in this part of Penang!! i dont see many flags though! :D

i like playing wit my 12x ZOOM function!!!! :) and here's the outcome wit a fast shutter speed!
atop Bukit Bendera using the century old cable train, it runs by clockwork i tink... lols

had our lunch here at the Bellevue Lodging atop the hill near an indian temple (which i missed out cos i was intriqued by a large mass of poo Kenji showed me, and i was SOOOO excited i forgotten a pic of it!!! .... wasted!!!!!) lols!!

flags billowing fiercely in the wind, dont blow my friends away!!!!! *Kelvin Kuah, Dee and Ryan Ah Yew*

Dee and the Brolly Boys (short for Um-bre-lla)

Clivey the other photographer decides to join in for a pic....

and followed by CheeWei who noes a thing or two about posing!

and suddenly Crowd dispersing!!!! where are these people heading too???

the Great Mountain Rattan, i dont see in ANY area particularly resembling the rattan plant!! it makes a nice subject for photographing though, capturing light that bounces off its texture, shape, repetition and rich colour!

the slender green thing could have been mistaken as a vine of this creeper foliage! we were told by the restaurant owner that there are about 4-5 of these slithering freely within the garden (and sue being the slithery-scaredy-silly, took a courageous step forward to snap this piccy of the frenly green snake~!) the pic looks okay, its head was turned away,its orite.. shy u see.....*yippee i feel victorious!*

a rare species of flower in my fav shade!!!! arghh, cant resist a close up!

@the Kek Lok Si Temple......

Wayne the Monkeying-all-The-time getting immersed in tranquility.. the gentle rushing of waterfall nearby, sinuous ripples caused by slow swimming koi fishes, (and mind, fat like him,, rofl)

my hand very itchy i noe......

and finally a piccy of the One Big Happy!!!!! im happy cos i stood out of the crowd HAHHAHA!

4days off!

2006-08-22T17:34:00.000+08:00

i am applying 4our days off this blog, so u wont be hearing me in a while...!

the reason why is..

i aM GOING TO BALI!! and toMorrow That is!!!!

whoOhoo!!! hopes i get some picturesques shots of the beautiful sunsets at the reknown Kuta Beach! :> tripod, remember this time!

happy Holidays (to me!)!!!

see u guys after Saturday!!! :> :>

p/s :: and pray hard for me yeah. -_-''' dangz!!

30th June 2006 - Day 2!

2006-08-22T10:16:00.000+08:00

On the very next morning, set out to look for breakfast along Gurney again(!?!!) had fried kuey teow with huge prawns, shredded crabmeat sticks, fat juicy cockles!!! very generous la the lady! ( i like every bit except the cockles, so Kelvin Kuah happily made a dash for them and finished all in one gulp!)

in the car, Wayne tries to get us all ready for a picture! we are all busy jabbering in the back.

on the 2nd try, he managed to coax a few of us to turn our heads at least, jabberings ceased.. Mr.Liew's face got cropped! heidi gets blocked by The Ornament and Kenji trIes to be the tallest (cos he noes he is nOT, haha!) and Wayne maintains the expression!

and the 3rd try,picture perfecto!!! Mr.Liew even manages a... L= Love? or L=Lame? sign. Heidi pokes her head in position, Kenji is feeling jubilant he still has the tallest head, and poor Wayne still MAINTAINS the expression. must have been tired waiting for us all! :P ;P

all of us in the back, doing what we do best, CAMWHORE!!!! :P

and thats my attempt of getting myself a self-portraiture, but alex poke his head in, and we have a landscape view instd! bweks!

we visited the Toy Museum which is located at Tanjung Bungah, strategicaly infront of the Copthorne Orchid Hotel. this is a place where the young or old, can find a piece of something which they can relate to! walking into this museum, u will reminisce of the times u used to own a piece or two of these toys. the guys are definitely so so so excited to come here...

there are so much to see, yet so lil pic i have taken! :) :) anyway, here are a few that i pretty took my time to snap. if u want Star Wars, Lord of The Rings, Power Rangers and all the boystoys i cant remember, be sure to look out for Kelvin Phang, half of his cam's memory are filled with pics of those!

and heck no, this scares the wits out of me! i cant relate to this, the movie makes no sense either!

sorry for the blindspots! its the only way to get these peep's face noticeable on the pic! its pretty dim in there at certain areas, be sure u are careful, and dont tread onto stray Gollums or Master Yodas. lol

okay, this Stitch is safe in the case, but its made of acrylic! im imagining an Experiment 626(Stitch that is!) coming alive at nite, pry the acrylic case open with his saw-like quality canines and creeps quietly behind people's back to tickle them till they get stitches.

maybe thats why they close at 6pm!

Doraemon! i like his blue bulbous oversized head! i reckon his solutions dont just come out of his magical pocket, they came out of his blue Bulbous out-of-the-world head! Cat without ears? Out-of-the-world-Cat! Blue Cat? .. wonder whats in the mind of the creator!!

porcelain, collective items dolls! :) the garments, headgears, musical instruments, the intricate details! :) wow!!

the blindspots again! i don have a polarization filter, darnedest! but it lends an assumption that Barbie is holding a wand on her right hand, or an illusion of a golden ray of light!

the Hello Kitties in their cutest ever! i like the pink dolphin and the pear/peach costume clad kitties!

more dolls...

and more Barbies... i like these exquisite,elegant, fairytale versions and strongly shun the bimbotic types. euws you!

introducing..... Boo! from Monster Inc! she's so adorable! me and dee aBsolutely aDores her!!!

Harry Potter's Collective Items! i don have piccy of Harry Potter as i much prefer him in real person. the doll-vers of him is not just as good looking. plus the doll of him sports a frown, i wonder why.....

Kelvin is all wide smiles as he came out of the museum! :) while Clive just can get enough.......

the posers, from left, Kelvin Kuah, Kenji, Alex, and Ah Yew.

Back at the Hotel......

bored in the hotel, no one wants to layan me!!! grr! random pics of the Mr.Liew's SE, he's nowhere to be seen, busy off sumwhere... i wonder where they are.....

so i found them, at the living area,noises and laughter! what are they doin?!?! having a cuppa?

found them with these!!! they look like agar-agar jelly dont they!??? the mahjong boys, they can stay in the entire day just playing mahjong!

so what is exactly so nice about mahjong?! and can anyone tell me what these mean?! :P:P i just see flowers and chinese characters.... what fun can u get outta those?! well well, they got their asses off finally, and headed to the pool rightafter! if its not the mahjong, its the pool! :P better the pool than mahjong then :P

here's a view of the poolside by our balcony. they have a soft spot for that area. they hang their laundry there u see. a few undies got blown off the railings and some end up in other unit's balconys! one turned up at the pool, another near the shrubs!!!! lols!

dinner@gurneydrive tonight! these guys had multiple servings over and over again. Char kuey Teow, Asam Laksa, Rojak, Ais Kacang, Fried Chicken Skin (yes fatty but very crunchy!), Tau Foo Fa..........

and repeat the list again for the 2nd and 3rd time! i wondered what they were doin in the pool earlier on....watching them eat is enough alone for me and Dee :P lols

filled to the brim, and a stroll along gurneydrive after dinnering, and a group piccy! this one's blur! :<

sorry for the ciplak nite piccy qualities, i came without a tripod and its difficult standing still with these peeps monkeying around! :P :P

@11pm - went to Batu ferringhi, initially plan to surprise and celebrate Chee Wei's 22nd by the beach near Parkroyal Penang but it was drizzling madness and we had to change our plans!

@a cafe near Parkroyal, Chee Wei sits down in front of his Lemon Cheesecake from Secret recipe....

thinking hard * what shud i wish for eh*

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*giler thinking* .... ask for 100 more wishes only lah!!

magnification of nature

2006-08-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

dewdrops after the evening pour! :> :> its a wonder how gravity works, doesnt it? diamante gems twinkling in the evening shine hanging on tight to the tips of needles of this fern, found in my very own garden.

Beauty sometimes exist right under ur nose, and thankfully peeking through the camera lense, i am able to appreciate, savour and be awed by all the big lil things. the lil things seen in the *big* context. the lil things that makes me smIle :) :) :)

the 29th July 2006 - the Penang getaway!

2006-08-20T15:41:00.000+08:00

this is my very long over-DUED(dieded) Penang trip post that i have long delayed to update! Dee and Kenji's been bugging me all week! guys, here it is, and its just the 1st day's pics and posts. far too many for a 4day trip postings. and i hate being long winded, so do bear with me if u hear the hints of me beginning to sound like one!

29th july 2006- 7:27am - we'd long had our breakfast and now seated comfortably in Mr.Liew's car embarking on our journey to Penang.. . me and dee chatted chirpily behind, taking random piccys once in a very while...

7:44am - ahhh, just looK at the morning sunrise! beautiful aint it?! i have waited so long for this moment and i was clicking away the camera just getting the perfect shot! travelling in mR.Liew's speeding car did not make my job easy as there are oways stray trees, cars, hillocks, and other unidentifiable objects obstructing the view.

the excitement is over when the clicking start to lessen, the music gets louder, the car moves faster, the guys in front asking me to get some sleep every now and then (hoping i will shut up!! haha) and dee getting sleepier.

later on, we pulled over at 2 stops when the other two cars need to refuel, *discharge*, recharge, *refill*, and we are back onthe wheels again.

got nothing to shoot till gotta shoot this crystallic hanging thingy hung on the rear mirror. wuahaha, my fab ultrasonic 12x zoom and image stabiliser, i am enjoying it!

boredom then starts to morph to hunger, when u are feeling bored, and done with all the talking, u resort to having something to munch on ( to kill the boredom that is )

Mr.Liew our Driver starts to rummage with one hand in a bag of goodies, and another hand on the steering, with Kenji just next to him plainly not doing anything and, not even intending to help him open the packet of cookie!!! wah! geramnya i sitting behind!

me : woooi kenji (as of whacking him nonstop on his shoulder at the sametime)....ur friend driving-ah.. u dunno how to help him open wan-ah!

kenji : ai-yah..... (then reluctantly takes it from Mr.Liew and opens for him)

me : u very teruk wan-la! see people driving oso dowan help people buka, u sit next to him for wat-leh?!

kenji : .... dot dot dot (makes a face that looks like >:-#) he makes this face when he kena temBak!

he proceeds on while i was looking away toward the windows watching the sceneries gleefully giggling at myself, haha

kenji : hey sue, nah.. give u one. (as he passes a cookie to my direction)

me: u open the cookie wan-maHh, hmmmph i dowans!!!!

kenji: not i open wan, Mr.Liew open wan de......

me: oo.. isit-ah?!?!! ... ooo!! then i want-lo!!! (dashes forward to grab the cookie from him and munch happily on it.....)

kenji: !~{&@#*^%#%!@*&^~!

muahahhahah! so the zha dau!!!! they started roaring in the car and Kenji proceeds to calling me names resulting in me continuously whacking him on his shoulder...!!! whoar! *bish * bisH* and bish sumores!! *bad kenji* bad bad!

we arrived at penang at approx 12noon and started to look for lunch (being boys they are, they get hungry very easily!)

@the food loft, Gurney Plaza - Dee and Kelvin! the place which is named the Food Loft is done in simple grey finishes, very much unstained concrete,with mini hanging chandeliers complete with grey-tinted glass partitionings for privacy and lush backed seatings.

dee and i shared a spaghetthi carbonara, comes with turkey ham, bland white sauce, weak hint of cheesiness, thin consistency, overcooked pasta, not al-dente at all! ciplak-ness quality! not pasta-worthied to be blogged about! finished it all the same, hungry we all are!

has nice setting though, accented with modern abstract (paintings) okay so -so service and great location of the dining area overlooking the sea,shores, Penang Bridge, the skyline and passing ships :)

and finally at around 3pm, we checked in our hotel, Hydro Majestic Hotel (which was prev. known as the Batu Ferringhi Hotel *pst .. i think the latter sounds better..) which is located on the Ferringhi beach itself.

hauled all our bags and luggages into the suite that comes with a livingroom, a double-single bedroom, and only ONE bathroom! how'd i imagine this to be?! 11 of us squeezed into a tuna can! phwoar! wahliaosness. its gonna be nightmarish wit all these uncontrollable monkeys!

taken from the pool, the balcony on the top left hand side is our room! yeah! we have got a great view of the poolside, Miami Bay (fancy names for holiday beachfront homes) and the apartments to the left of the hotel! :):)

Mummy dee, who takes good care of our belongings that INCLUDES carkeys, wallets, spectacles, cameras, handphones! she is oso the Guardian of The Key, alongside with the abovementions. she alone holds the key to our room and she is like our mummy! :P:P she oso makes sure the guys behave so the both of us wont get bullied siao by them. lols!

calming sinuous clear blue water! :):)

Mr.Liew and Wayne Lew! Meet the "L(i)ews" , they are the best of friends (so obvious by the looks of their *ahem* intimacy)!! Alex the toO-happy-to-Be impersonating "the Doggie paddle", Kenji oways readyforthe camera, he's oways too quick to make the pic look candid. and finally Cheewei, who'd obviously had a drink underwater!!

not so calming anymore! splash wash! water action!

view of the hotel at sunset,i feel so minisculic and kecik when i take shots from angle such as that. pink and blue splashes across the skies.

We have the "L(i)ew's in our one Big Happy, and now meet the Fong's! not the blushing newly weds ofcos! teehee! Kenji acting*cute* here and Dee poses as the blushing bride. wahah!!

had a filling dinner near our hotel and proceeded to the famous beaches of Penang, the Batu Ferringhi beaches. there are hotels at every nook and cranny of this place, not to mention the local pasarmalam that offers great bargains selling everything from souvenirs, clothes, arts and crafts, accessories, watches, vdcs, dvds u name it! restaurants, dining places,bars, cafes,boutiques,souvenir shops are also abundant here!!

alex in all his model-posing-glory at the beach upfront of the Grand Plaza Penang Parkroyal Hotel. i had the flash setting right this time :) *yays!* i cropped his leg though, which was a pity! and he doesnt seem willing for another shot! *note the expression* !

dee's hand missing here! i dunno where she's misplaced it! its a beautiful nite at the beach wit the waves lapping, the sands soft between my toes and the wind caressing my face.. wishing fuzzy was there! :> had a long long walk before walking back to the hotel to snappy more piccIes!

the luxurious looking Grand Plaza Penang Parkroyal Hotel! (thats the corridors to the right wing of the hotel, that leads to a very cool nifty bar i-cant-remember-its-name!! :<) ammm wait, its.. Cool Bananas! woot! just like its name, its just cool, i like the color-changing backdrop of the liquor display at the bar! (sory don have pic!)

the loBby upon entering the entrance looks pretty impressive. Entering to the right of the entrance, the interiors and deco of the Javana Lounge boasts high volume, simple forms, classy colour scheme, tropical based materials selection, mostly accented types of lighting to accentuate (if not what?!), plushy comfy couches! very teak-ish, tanned, cream+black! will call this theme the *Fuzzy's Choice* haha!

the less noise(y) quality pics - rattan-like materials for lighting! creates nice dispersions of lights that reflects on what seems to be dark-tinted glass table tops! :) the bamboo streaks at the left acts like a static*curtain*/partitions for the lounge/dining areas. very tRopical!!

there's also a stage at the far end, where the grand piano stands mighty on the left accompanying other instrument players for a band performance that nite :P i cant remember which song though, but i found myself humming the tune while i was checking the whole place out, picking my locations and angles for piccy takiNg ;)

we left at about 11 that nite, as everyone was feeling tired, esp the 3 drivers. well, but when we arrived at the hotel lateR that nite, they resumed their mahjong games till late at nite and never got to sleep till about 5am!! darn these lazy pigs!

and i slept through the entire nite without any ssheeets, cold and shivering and wishing i was in my cocoon at home insteaD!! not enough sheets *winCe*

well, its just till here for the 1st day in penang's trip! more updates on the rest of the trip soon! :):):)

p/s :: dee, hahah did i leave out anythiNg funny and silly i cant recall of?:P tell me if u think there's one :P

work of art

2006-08-18T19:13:00.000+08:00

form, shape, repetition, light, shadow

living space/area/

2006-08-17T13:41:00.000+08:00

lights bounce off crevices, corners and cornices. lights absorbed by ancient furniture. layer of stale dust. smell of aged wood. smooth dull mattness of the plasters.

east meeets west. no room for space. space for air. air for life. life for living.

Let TheRe b3 Light... Part 2

2006-08-17T00:09:00.000+08:00

funny things do happen in the most unexpected places!! i spotted this at the stairwell which is the dullest portion of the entire house possibly! dark, cold, still, but a glimmer and playful display of light streams in just before sunset! the only light (artificial) is incandescence light from the attic. (eeeeerrrrrieeee)

and all the cloudsy pics i took with pleasure and enjoyment while i was stranded for more than half an hour down at the universiti roundabout, (with a beam on my face,no doubt) and looking dubiously utterly silly with a camera in one hand, and steering wheel in another!!!!!

skies just bowl me over for a good reason! they are so huge and spread endless above my head and beauty of that span just overwhelms me!!

*is this me, being an easy?*

perhapsly so.......

u can catch me smiling at a tray of freshly baked choc cookie sometimes and

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*imaginarily the choc chips jumped out of their scattered positions and as if conjured in my very own mind, they run to their positions to form a smiley*!!!

things smile back at me in my silly lil head!!! too old for imaginary smiles or frens or make believes now... :P:P lols

goodnite now, time for some real action

sleeping.. and sweetdreaMS!!!

tOodles!!!

Let there Be Light.........

2006-08-16T14:50:00.000+08:00

same occasion, 3 different phases of time, and the vibrance that light lends to our lives and everything around it! :) :) :)

a Flurry Hurry of Happenings

2006-08-10T09:40:00.000+08:00

things are happening in a blurry fast gust of wind!

in yesterday's post, i stressed that i havent gotten a Call from The Company
and fast forward a couple of hours after, they called iN and i gave them my resound
*Yes, i do*!!!!! woot! giler happy i am! fuzzy is twice as excited as i am!

in the meantIme.............

the appointment wit client scheduled today (..... time and place not confirmed!)
the farewell dinner at dee's aunt's apart scheduled tonite (........time not confirmed too)
the calls i have gotta make to companies .....
in matter of a few days time, i will walk down in my graduation robes, with a scroll in my hand, (.....ah.. the other day rambling to dear Annissa and Shasha about the robes, and the cap and the tassle..)

i feel an untimate bodoh-ness smacking me hard on the face when they said they dunno if we have to do the tassles. DarN!

do u have to do the tassle?!

left to right , or rIght to left!? (must have been watching movies too much, with Mona Lisa's Smile contributing to the silly idea of this one) lols!

and in matter of weeks i will be hitting if off, working in a company i so wanna work wit (well at least thats how i feel now!)

Excited, Ecstatic, and Enthusiastic!!!!

calls i have to make to frens, catching up and keeping them updated for a bit before i will be too caught up with the hustle and bustle of commuting to KL and back and working my *toots* off and meeting deadlines, and meeting awefUL DEMANDING BOSSES expectations and a very awe-INspirinG COMPETETIVE group oF teammates!!!!!

and now i am scaring the *toots* outtamyself!!!! urggghs.. things cant be that bad really. *inhale 5 secs, hold 10secs, exhales*

will try to update on the *gust of wind* as i call it. before it leaves only a trail of withered leaves behind!

taken on Aug 9th, smiling at the sky smiling back at me. taken in the evening near sunset

yaYs!! again!!
till then, ssee u guys again, i am running outta exciting stuffs to say edi..

but to those out there( u noe who u are's) thanks for chipping in ur bits and opinions on my options on selecting the place appropriate for me to work in. couldnt have made ANY decision w/out u!!
(i am fickle as always,aging didnt help me one bit,a year older but still fickling)

this goes out to my parents, and (sis!) and uncle,aunt,Louis...woooh. too many to mention!!

hope stufF goes smoothly from there. :> *cross fingers*

Late Updates

2006-08-09T14:48:00.000+08:00

this is a post i have long typed out but never got the time to post online :> my sis rescued a poor butterfly that fell into one of the lilypots that day. brought it into the house for the poor dainty creature to dry its wings, while i happily fish out my camera to take a few snaps. (yes poor traumatize flutterby, i cant resist!)

taken on 18th July 2006

been busy lately wit preparation for interviews, and degree show ( the past 2 weeks, yes i am ancient) and more interviews! and came back from penang with coursemates just last week . will update that soon once i complete my freelance assignment! *arghh* begins to see the signs of stressing out as i have been drinking cup after cup of my favourite jasmine roundie i got few days back! ! !

till then! see ya! :) *cross my fingers* The Company hasnt called me yet! :( :S

Laman 2006 :: Malaysia's International Garden and Landscape Festival 2006, @ Perdana Lake Gardens

2006-07-16T01:14:00.000+08:00

i was at the Malaysia's International Garden and Landscape Festival 2006 *clicky for more info* which was held at the Perdana Lake Gardens from 6 - 16th of July 2006. there was a huge turNup at the Gardens this afternoon, couldnt find a parking bay till 20mins later.

i came equipPed with my Canon s3 IS, ready to shoot any pretty bloom that will daintily tilt its head to beckon and flash me its vibrant smile :P i saw a spidey looking oRchid, its cream body in contrast to speckled purple markings on its thin arachnidic legs, i thought it looked pretty pretty :)

the speckly purple spider(or thats what i call it)
@the United Malaysian Orchids

white frilly gowns in motion
@the United Malaysian Orchids

brilliant orange tongues
@the United Malaysian Orchids

myriad of colours, petals, shapes, sizes
@the United Malaysian Orchids

surreal greens

mum + sis, looking as happy as their surroundings

eden's paradise ( i like this and the prev 2 pics lots!)

holland(aise) bromeliad blooms,u could almost feel the pink energy radiating
@the Holland Pavillion/Royal Netherlands Embassy

found a garden theme that i like, purple blooms, light green foliages and wispy finger!
*whiMsiCal*!!!
@the Valley of Dreams

deep crimson angels wit theiR halos (taken with the sun setting brightly behind!)

moRe bromeLiads , saying huLLO wit their perfectly circular orifices

banana not for consumption, decorative banana flower
@the Edible Garden- Garden, not just for the Eyes

the rotundous pink inedibles
@the Edible Garden- Garden, not just for the Eyes

sweet potato leaves i believe
@the Edible Garden- Garden, not just for the Eyes

the lettuce patch (pardon the pun) gardens now can look pretty and Edible!
@the Edible Garden- Garden, not just for the Eyes

had the time for only one macro shot, parents walk as if they were in a hurry

flowers, more flowers, ( i dunno what these are called)

i think i will call them cornflowers :P Pink Cornflowers!

Mum in her +kawaii+ mode = she gets nicer when she's around flowers

At the Floral Enclave

one of my fav entries, by a florist in KL : a thematic floral display/arrangement wit a very *Purplish Dream feeling in it

my fav++ floral/wedding arrangement (an ethereal garden setting of my dreams!)

and back out at the Lake Gardens, the pretty maze!

tendrils, spirals, curls! gardens wouldnt look any better w/out these

may in the wooden swing!

me * & sis back at the orchids booths, we just cant get enough of *em!

we got through just almost half of the entire park, and only to half of the exhibits. the heat is certainly getting to us, and the crowd coming by the troves in our opposite direction.

we certainly had a good time if not a great one, watching the flowers certainly lit my day :) so much more than i havent seen. will pay them a visit in Laman2007 hopefully, and this time i will come equipped wit sunblock too! :D :D

River View in Kuala Selangor

2006-07-15T12:08:00.000+08:00

have been busy all week with preparations for the degree show thats launching off this coming friday evening at 4 - 30 pm. the layout's that's deemed to be completed some months back during the submissions needed to be tweaked again! ( i hate squeezing two sems work in one stupid A0!) college is so kiam siap!)

somehow found the mood to post up pix that me and my coursemates took during the seafood dinner at River View in Kuala Selangor :) the morning lagging connection failed me again, i couldnt accesss anything asides jobstreet, jobsdb and gmail! (and btw i have an interview tomolo at 11am!!! )

clowny wayne making an *expressionless expression* - hungry people are angry people

dee and i in the car - it was still bright when we left

discussing marriage plans over dinner (the groom wears the band on his head)

nging yew and the scissorshand ( has the height though!)

i am overcome-d by crabbyness

Kelvin, I, Yew and Dee

The Golden Couple

and Fabulous * kam heong* Crab ( the pinchers being my fav bit!!!! )

we all left at approx 11 after the super GROUP piccy and i reached home approx 12 30. dozed off after shower. with life like this, no wonder pot bellies exist!

tongsHui = Suegar Water

2006-07-14T15:56:00.000+08:00

ginkgo, longan, sugared water in *tongshui* goodness!!!!! great for the incredulous drastic weather changes, rechaRGe!!

Octopus Tako Balls

2006-07-04T00:29:00.000+08:00

i mentioned in an earlier post of tako balls and drIed bonito flakes about 3 weeks back, and here's how it looks like! (this is a pasarmalam vers. and taste better too!_)

delectable!

pic_1 and pic_2 look not very different from one another, submitted both for posts' sake..

RM3 ended in the comfortable pink linings of my tuMmy in less than 3 minutes , while taking the right angle certainly took me a longer time, so i decided to post it anyway:)

wanna go pasarmalam again next week!!!

*squeals at tako tako tako*!!

Mother Nature's Baby Anecdotes

2006-07-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

a m b e r . c r y s t a l i c . s a p . d e w s

l u s h . b l u s h .
p i n k . g r i n
s o f t . l a u g h
w i n d . s i n g
t i n k l e . w i g g l e

s t u r d y . f i b r o u s .
p o k e y . i t c h y .
c r i m s o n . p e a c h

Secret Garden

2006-07-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

s p i k y f r a m e . s h i n y l e a v e s . a m e a d o w o f g o l d a n d l i l a c

f a l l e n s t a r . f a l l e n b r i g h t
n e o n g r e e n . k r y p t o n i t e
s t a r b r i g h t . s t a r m i g h t
g r a n t m y w i s h . m y w i s h t o n i t e

a u b e r g i n e d m a p l e l u c k .

this very particular shot is augmented in photoshop, the ori wasnt purple.(t'was green)

w a r m t h . s u n . d e l i g h t i n a c o c o o n !*

Evening Remembrance

2006-06-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

been counting counting counting, then i just figured just now...

THAT...

its FriDay edi, just 4moRe Days! *yays*

in the meantime before helping mum prepare dinner earlier, i sneaKed out to snap the beautiful sunset:) the fluffy cotton fluffs gathering in the evening blue boredom.... eiHs.

my favourite objects : leaves , flowers, sky,.. i am so predictable. sorry if i boRed u.

will haveto find some other quiRkieR objects to shoot now :)

i was thinking just now, if i had a choice to pick what insect to shoot, i would wanna them to be butterflies, dragonflies oR even ladybuGs! :)
(cos they are so glossy and clean looking!!)

but.... i need a slow moving creature, one that will hardly move! i was shooting a flower while the wind came blustering and i needed to try 3 times before i got it rite!!!

it struck me that... i may be photographing caterpillars nexttime (though i am terrified of them)! they are practically such slow mos and the ever movement they make is the wriggling when they are happily chewing on my plaNts! (darnedest pests!)

cattypillars scare the daylights and toRchlights and wits out of me!!!!!!!!!!!

all that matters is i dONt get tOO macro with them till they find a way to crawl on my lens!
KEEP OUT u tickley multi-padded feet overfed obese enormous too euw for urself plant munching creatures!!!! euw!

lols. enough crawlies conversations.

wanting somethiNg cheerier to look at!! :) YaLLO is so the colour of the week!!! :):) im in luRvee!!!!!

the centre that is fluffy makes me feel like i wanna turn into a bee so i could buzzingly (and klutzily) collide into the bed of yalo fuzziness!!!! :P :P :P :P

i wanna be a hOney Bee, cos BuMbles scare the honey out of me too!!

me and my silly day dreams!!! :)

and some greenery!!!!! i dunno the name of this but i recall my mum likes them for their multifunctional and medicinal values.

(and that i cant remember what either)

they are green on the upperside and a slight purplish on the underside..

like origami paper to make grape and vine!! :) muahahaha!

a day of turmoil, stupid coffemate (which is the root of all stupid arguments), frustrations.

but yet i see the cheshirely crescent moon smiling at me. Hoping is good. right now i will retire to my nest, it is the only place i DARED to hope or wish silly wishful thinkings

Nites fluffyclouds

One, tWo, tHwee, fWo, Faive...

2006-06-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

been counting days, counting petals off the daisy, counting my fingers

and just back from counting stars outside (after doiN the laundry)

wait...

laundry at nIGht?!

:P

counting clothes, counting sheeps, counting days off my calendar..

moving on to counting hair.... (????)

counting heads.

HEADS!

ahhh.....

headcounts!!! in Switserland or Swisserland or Spritzerland?!

darnS!
...
...

time i count mewINg laMbs to sleep nw.
counting makes me lose my mind..

Wanna a LipBalm to Calm

2006-06-28T21:01:00.000+08:00

is this to do with the weather or is it just me?

i drink gallons after gallons of water, but my lip cracks(and it hurted tonnes) cos i cant help licking it to moist it and sometimes i taste a tinge of metallic taste in it,

taste like bLOod..

now i have the habit to nibble on it and i think its not helping a lot in helping it to heal
the crack is bigger now, my constant nibBling on it

i need a moisturiser, one made for Lippie

no lipbalm for almost a week now
:( :( :(

*bawls* >.<

Disgusting Discussions

2006-06-27T03:37:00.000+08:00

lunched with Wen and Tyuen at Waffles World and further on proCeed to Tyuen's place to chatters and pop byto say hello to his mum :)
havent catched up with them both for so longtime (the last being 23rd June, and wasnt much exchange either) but the topics we covered were Worms, Gays, Transexuals and what they all have in common?

Pretty Disgusting i would say: Disgusting!

eUwss

i came back in the evening after dropping Wen off, and reached home approx 7, just in time for dinNer

i shared my Chocolate Indulgences with sis just now, and the middle portion taste so good i feel like i could manage a WHOLE cake!

imissfuzzysomuch

fuzzywatz is in my bed still wit that frown

now i am feeling sleepy i wanna go and teman him in bed liaos.

havent gotten good sleep lately, been grilling squid all nite on my bed

time i get some sleep or i will wake up with panda eye circles now.

and i will look just as Disgusting tomorrow!!!!

Change of Templatey,Mood,Timezone,Screwed up Scheds

2006-06-26T03:55:00.000+08:00

yes, i am using this template in the meantime, becos Chien Yiing recommended me to using Mozilla Firefox and upon installing i tested the browser and (haughtily & Mightily) typed in my blog URL only to find out HOW incredibly MESSY and ugLY it looks in Firefox! Darns@!!! eghh!!! so out of (kiasuness) i am using a temporary template for the moment (yes i am so vain i cant stand my blog looking so hideous, lols)

will be working on a new one, and hopefully with the site he recommended with helpful html,xhtml,javascript and css tutorials i will be able to put it up real soon ( a better one!! with the same puRple headeR , teehee). oR out of kiasiness if i cant put it up soon like i said i would i might just use the current template for good, its got a prettty colour and calmiNg design anyway! :P :P

phengz's blog is pretty screwed up too, when viewed in Firefox!! hahahha!

(so i am not the only one with unfriendly scripts)

DARN you Microsoft!!!!!!!!!

and...

Happy 22nd BirthDay to Yong May!!!!!!!!! :P
hahah, i am older than you by 2 days, but u are Taller than me more than 2 inches

eesh!
Hopes u have a great day planned by your friends with many pressIes and hugs and kIsses and may all ur wisHes come trUe!! :)

_xoxoxo_

Eating => Bouncy

2006-06-25T22:40:00.000+08:00

nothing much to post today, went to Sg.Buloh for brunch (yes bak Kut Teh, and i am an anti-pork club president) and to take piccy but the pics turn out so noisy, like a bunch of aunties yacking, so unpleasant i dont wanna post em!

so, clouds & a Peachy Complexion will do i suppose...

my sisters treated me to MfM (edit :: short for Manhattan Fish Market) this evening and i treated them to NZ's Natural Yogurts' icecream @ Ikano. its my 3rd time to Ikano this week, and most of the time there to find sth to munch on. i will be pilling on pounds if i dont watch where (and who) i go places with! the plus point about my sisters are they look skeweRstick_thin even if they wallopTHRICe the amount i have.

arGHHH

i am ALLERgic to food!!

i get fat even drinking water / inhaling air to breathe

i have fatty gene in me, and that PROUdly i inherited from my aunt,
DISH!

and not to mention, for dinner we went MfM again! (cos parents havent been there before!)

>.< >.< :S o.O darn! we skIpped the mussels tho (phews)

but the chips.
and rice.
and fish.
and awfully sinful butter garlic sauce drizzled on my alaskan pollock

carb overload!!!

rolls and topples down the escalator like a potato!!!
poINg poinG poiNnngggg!!!!!!

no more mfm for another few months nw..............
Dory makes me wanna forget about eating fisH and cHIps, jelaK d!!!

Midsummer's Day 2006

2006-06-24T14:47:00.000+08:00

i went to ikea the other day to get some stuffs for the home but we ended up in ikano for a haIRcut for sis and new incense sticks for myself!

there were a few variants like the Bamboo, White Plum, Lavendar & Aqua but i got the aqua wan all the same ;) been using that for years now and i cant get sick of the scent :):) in fact i am more addicted to it now. 120 sticks for RM 18.00, its not bad for a Jap product :):) and less smoky than the Aussie/India vers.

just came back fr lunch toDay with my family, we had Loh Mee with *sharkfin broth* with lotsa vinegar and chillisauce! u can find this stall selling Pan Mee in D'sara Kim, near ttdi area (cant remember the coffeshop's name tho)

i was sUrprised by my siblings this morning with a slice of Chocolate Indulgence (from Secret Recipe) and a lil candle and singing me the birthday song! arGhh how really sweet!!! :) sis still remembers thats my fav cake froM Secret Recipe!!!!! :):)

candle blow out edi, i feel like i am One years old all over again!!!!! muaahhahaaha!

Many Many thanks to Kennyttyuen, EstherPester, Wen, Yenn, Jkhan, Ymooi *lols* for a wondeRful nite last nite!!!! Sorry Sifu, u owe me dinner for being the only absentee!

and extra thaNks to Wen who went through some *difficult situations* to get stuff straightened out for us all!

* u really are a true fren!!!!!* (i mean, a Classic Cheese-y fren, she ordered Classic Cheese from Secret Recipe also!) lols

to the rest, if u are reading this, i'd really appreciate that u guys actually (forego ur footie) just to spend this very significant moment of my life with me :P:P

thanks guys! _xoxoxo_
adOres the *Nicky u gave me Est, it maDe me sMile the moment i pull it out of the box, like Sunshine after the rain! :):)

formerly introduced *Nicky and *Fuzzywatz to each other, they are fast friends now, altho Nicky smiles and Fuzzy frowns :D:D

Teddy Talks

2006-06-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

toDay i will let The Teddy do the talking foR me

fuzzywatz is a stuffed animal, a Teddy i hug to sleep past few nites

keeping me company :) ;)

and he's adopted my expression!

DARNS!

Picture Sums Up How i Feel_Droplets

2006-06-22T22:24:00.000+08:00

Canon S3 IS :: morning :: sien :: down :: sth is deadly missing :: flyaway :: down (did i mention down?) :: lonewaterlily :: house :: lotuspods :: teardrops :: waterglider (yay i found my insect to shoot)

p/s :: no watergliders are hurt in the making of my pictures

*give fuzzzy a smile**holding...**holding.....**holding....*

*wince*

*....*

*.........................*

*burst into tearysmearedwetsloppysniffy drops*

*holding....*

*tolerate sumore*

*breathe in, out, in, out*

*okays edi*

this is how i have basically spent my day

no kidding, i feel like i was in labor or sth

feeling the baby's breath

2006-06-19T01:49:00.000+08:00

i love babybreaths!!!!! these are bundle of drIed puRplish cousins of the white baby's breath :) fuzzy.wuzzy got em along with some blood red roses some sum time back, duriNg last year's prom, when i was nominated to be finalist for crowning of queen :)

i was so in love with em i kept them standing in an ikea vase standing by the window getting their share of healthy bask each morning, and result of that,the tanning routine causes it to lose its lilac-ish tint and turNed a dry strawish brown. the tiny blooms are still intact and they all remind me of tiny ickle moments that i have that in truth are miniscule events of my life but bring so much meaniNg to it, giving it breath of joy, happinEss and hope :)

i got a taste of tako balls in Midvalley yesterday. although i have oways loved the octopus_embedded ones, the chicken and cheese arent too bad either. i like the flaky stuff they chucked in on top to give it a whimsy chicken feather look. i meticulously poke them into skewers bit by bits and yumMily chew them,licking every morsel!! flaky and taste like squidness!!!!! like me, in fact!!!! i Like!

i spent Father's Days nite sticking parquet tiles back into place. it seems the water has gotten through the edges, eating out the adhesive and loosening the strips from the concrete floor. bending on all fours applyiNg icky gOoey glue and placing them in place gives me a woozy head. blood runs to my head and draiN all the consciousness of everything i see or look at. i lose my focus, things look like a few times morethan their singular self, all gaussian blurryied and i lose sense of balance. in more times than once over a few incidents, i toppled over and land flat on my back becos I DONT get enough blood getting to my head (or there simply is TOO much?) what is the explaination in having to lower ur head down but not having enough blood in ur head??! i thought we live on Earth and not the moOn..Blood Rush?!

i shed a few tears again today, simply recalling what fuzzy said about how fragile and short life can be. it would be difficult for me to imagine a life without a fren like him. it occurs to me that what he was feeling might (pray pls not let it be true!) in real come true. this really really reduce me to tears!! *blows nOSe*

*eesh* dont ever say things like that, u dont recall one of the ferry incidents upon arriving at Pangkor dont u! u and ur so Itchy mouth!!!

*bisH*bisH*

::edits:: the flaky stuff turns out to be Dried Bonito Flakes, and they are made from some dry fish.

i dunno what they are, but they are yummy

will remind myself down a trip to Jusco to grab a pack to snack on, aha

The Camera, tHe bro & My Dawg

2006-06-15T20:02:00.000+08:00

*jolts*

i woke up this morning again having a funny dream, must be the constant thinking lately,and coincidentally the sms tone sounded, waking me finally awake. its a morning message from fuzzy. havent got it for ages now, which makes it rather special thats why.

i spend majority time of the day driving, and the rest eating, resting, taking pictures and sitting in front of pc trying to do sth to get my mind occupied

i ferried my siblings to CHS again and this time, to kill time (1 hOUR WAitiNg!) i have decided to bring along my camera to keep me company. i found a few interesting plants to shoot, like the bamboo for example, but the outcome is hideous because under the shade it gets too dark and i messed up the ISO setting again, lotsa particles and noise.
so here i am, parked in front of this orange church finally. i fish out my camera, happily strung it over my head. (yes its heavy, but its my baby) and slowly make my way down the steps that lead to the compounds of the church.

as i have said, i found tall wispy bamboos (my fav!!) near the carpark area along wit benches to be my shooting object, and the only one that turned out just okay is the right of the middle row (& it looks the worst among that lot!)

i personally like the orange periwinkle best becos of its vibrant contrast against the background! imho,the best background would be one without clear blind spots of bright backlit or stark skies.

its oso the cheeriest looking, and clearly the happiest, and i like looking at it As for the past few days been sorta grey for me. suddenly the tiniest thing like looking at toffee whine makes me wanna burst into tears too! *notty toffee (why'd u pee-ed everywhere and anywhere u please!!!?)

sometimes i think a lil animal like a dog deserves some kindness, it really hurts me to see dad reacting like that to Toffee thinking one day when he's had enough, he'll do the same to his own children.... not forgetting Toffee is JUST a dog, how'd he expect her to understand what he'd said, lest understand why she was beaten :<

i'd say to sis earlier, maybe we should find a better owner for Toffee, for as much as i love her and adore her as my lil puppy i cant tolerate to hear her whine and squeal every now and then. it tears at my heart strings. :,( just how do u make a puppy not notty? she's the notTiest girl puppy i have ever met! ( just like me..nOT!) :P

the *theme* for tomorrow : "tOffee"

i suppose if i spend time with her and capturing her in sexy poses she'll have less time to be naughty (pardon, it is not INTENDED to be a pun)

that is, also if i dont walk down the stair the next morning, stepping into a puddle of unmistakeable liquid namely her pee!

2nd time around, and dissapointed

2006-06-14T21:12:00.001+08:00

the 2nd post this day! i am so addicted to photoshop i decided to post sth i drew today :)i have sth for glassy buttons and in this attempt i think it is just 60 % of the overall look i want that i have in my lil fuzzed head, the other 40% is not present cos its not glassy enough!!!!! :P:P

well glassy o not, at times i feel i am transparent like glass, people dont treat me like i am alive at home! a good example would be today, becos i was feeling down due to an incident that happened in the morning and that resulted in my obsession with photoshop. i draw what i visualise in my head and well 60 % is present so a lil of my tension is somehow lifted.it leaves a calming & uplifting effect.

so next time u feel u need to release some tension, try photoshoppertheraphy, it works!

p/s : u could also try opening a file of _the_person_who_pissed_you and scribble and squibble and sQuiggle sth nasty on the Face, it works miracles and plants a smirK on ur face! :P enjoy!!

2006-06-14T15:25:00.000+08:00

getting lazy to blog lately, as i have found a new preoccupation
here's how ->

so bored sitting in room with the weather so gloomy there's hardly sunshine,
so i took piccy of my mobile! (more of the strap, becos i love swiRls!)
i used to take piccy wih my mobile phone and now i am taking pic of it using the camera :>

i am looking for ickle insects to take macro of, but all i find are ants, ants and ANTS! and the drizzle outside certainly does not allow a day for butterflies or dragonflies or flutterbys alike to flit joyfully in the morning sun.

that leaves me the ants and flies option, but i am willing to wait!:>

hopefully Chip-Chip will pay a visit later on, *(Chip-Chip is a pair of huBBy-&-wife hummingbirds that come in the evenings when i water the plants outside, they love to bath in the sprinkles of dews left on the leaves) and rightfully with the correct shutter speed i am able to capture them on my camera!:>

cant wait till 6, and hopefully it doesnt pour :<

p/s:: the name *Chip-Chip* implies to the *chEeep* they chirp when they hop from a leave to another.(yes they are so dainty!) Boy Chip is a pistachio green in colour and has a shiny pearlescent dark head and red markings! Girl Chip on the other hand is a lighter pistachio with yellow tint on her face (like face powder!:>) they both look so lovely and cute together, hopes to meet them laters :>:>

picture posting ver.1.1

2006-06-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

mini pods and beads of dews shining like tiny jewels

fiRst macro attempt on my brand new Canon s3 IS! i even dream of macro in my sleep yesterNite!
its awfully late now, and i have just came out with a temporary watermark to stamp my name hard on my effort! will prolly come out with a niftier more refined one next time.

foR as of now, my back is sore bending up and down the whole day

sayoNara and goodnItes! *yaWns*

buRst of violet and marigold on a purple lily! *my favs colouR*

dainty wispy fingers from a lone potted plant

Picture Posting

2006-05-17T15:33:00.000+08:00

today i decide to piccy post! thats the very first favourite! piccy i took with my dad's SLR back then during my foundation. its a picture of the staghorn fern that holds on taut (for its DEAR life) onto the great Rambutan tree. upclose is the young leaves that just started to uncurl and unfurl, looks like baby's toes stretching to greet the world its about to see! :P

i was installing photoshop into my clean pc just now
as it's a CS 2 vers. that Bryan gladly loaned to me
i excitedly switched the new software on to explore its new features.

but i am still upset

i silly-ly backED upPED all my files beforehand few days back, even the brushes (bcos i am so attached to using them)

but i forgotten to back my FONTS up!!!
#!*%$">^@#^&%#!*%$(*#@ >:-S

p/s :: sorry about the speckles of Noise, ISO settings screwed sumhow, as i said (very fiRst attempt)

psd-ed cRazy!!!

2006-05-16T04:35:00.000+08:00

i am a .............................

result of getting hooked to photoshop
blame it on the person who started the header and footer (Hand Foot n Mouth) disease.

a *gif(t) from aBove

2006-05-16T04:20:00.000+08:00

the fuzzy.wuzzy is

^~^ *griNs*

Making Most Of tHe Remaining Days

2006-05-04T15:13:00.000+08:00

after 9th of May 2006, i will be the happiEst gurl that Day!!!
teehee. becos its that Day when i happily finished my presentation for this final year pRoject!!
no more deadlines crammed week after week!

i just have 2 more days,
wish me luck

i am upset i missed the 01 . 02. 03. 04. 05. 06. moment early this morning!

i cant believe when i recalled the time i was about to fall asleep it was almost 1!!!!

i shud hAVE stayed awaKe instd!!!

anyway, just blogging today to express my frustrations
the power supply for ss2 area was pretty frail all morning,

the lights flickered a while for a few minutes, stayed steady for a few minutes

then pOOf!

blaCkout!

darnedest, now its back and i am happy,i showered the morning smell i have on me, start to do my work

and

guess what............................

it starts to sound like raiNINg now!!!!!!!!!

#$%^&^%*!@$%!!!

Papayas Vs. Bananas

2006-04-27T05:12:00.000+08:00

i do not noe whats up with my mum and her choice of groceries.
she's been making us makaning the papayas that she'd gotten from market
i reckon its the season of papayas, or otherwise why Monday to Sunday oso papaya eh.

u noe something about papaya ( and i mean our local fruit la okay )
there are generally TWO types which i had personally categorise them in
the first is sweet, smooth in texture and doesnt have a mushy feel to it.

the second is ALSO sweet, very slimy in texture, feels like its clumpy yet mushy (and i mean, like over-riped or sth) like probably Bruised when the fruit grows mature and is too heavy therefore dropped with plop on the ground. like squashed. baby ga ga food.

the special * feature about this type of papaya is, it has a certain *aroma* about it. like a bad aura or sth. maybe bad luck becos it has fallen hard from the tree and bruised and mushed itself on its sides. like. poor papa-yahahahaha

the *aroma* is close to what smells like ..er.. chicken droppings
i dont mean to indicate i hAVE had chicken dropping to close proximity to my nose or mouth to identify the *aroma* but i have onced uponed a timed visited this grandaunt who has coops in her backyard frequently enough to noe what chicken poop smells like.

i used to hold my breath all the whole way till i enter the house becos the smell is just too unbearable. i used to be a fairly sick looking kid with swollen purple balloon as my face, then when the visits gets lesser, the purple tint toned to a crimson tone (thats my recent complexion colour). that probably explains why i am so crazed about getting aubergine-coloured hair then. its nostalgic.. ahh. lol

well back to the topic about papayas!

i was up in the study in front of pc after dinner when mum yelled for me to come down to have fruits . i turn a green tinge when my bro told me its papaya!

i mean

aiyo! that stench wei

i cannot stand it!!!

in the end oso have to eat it up. cos mum is so pissed she possibly had to *invite me to have fruits downstairs and called again and again to comfirm rsvp i had to scramble down rite away or i will suffer some papaya consequences.

swallowed the chunks on swift gulps down my throat so it wouldnt be in my mouth long enough to send whifts and wafts of *aroma* up the nasal and down my throat.

i would have gagged and puke rite away if i let my imagination doodled some imaginary chic poop image. euwyucksies.

i prefer banana at all times. the form is simple yet interesting and it has no funny foul smell. good to eat, high in potassium, great snack for anytime-of-day-comsumption, great for ur brains, aids in digestion..

i promised myself, i WILL NOT HAVE the 2nd-category PAPAYA anymore!!!!!!
and pls people, don grow papaya tree near the chickens' homes.

heRe's to the End of Sadness and TorMent

2006-03-14T02:47:00.000+08:00

before i got to GrandMa's toDay,
here's what i have been worKing on. ..asides from my incoMplete theMe with this wallpapeR in the staNdby....

i diNt include the mouRning expRessioN........ :(:(:(

soBs. *break into lil tearDrops

Candles Remind u that u ARe getting Older

2006-03-13T15:41:00.001+08:00

on Sunday, March 12 2006, (thats yesterday) we celebrated 3 persons' birtHdays!
deaR Meng will be turNing 15 offIcially on this 28tH March but siNce heR birtHday in the *LunaR* calendar fell yesteRday we celebrated it together with dad and youNger sis's which fall on the 1st of April and 15th of March respectively.

Although the dates are quite faR from one anotheR we have celebrated it this way foR the past yeaRs. (mum lazy bake 3 individual cakes for all of *em)

somehow feels lucky my birtHday and pheNg's are apart by one moNth, teehee

we make very UN-similaR cancer sisters really.

i haven't had birtHday celebrations at home for so loNg now, eXcept for one in my Year1, and that itself wasnt a very pleasant experience. (due to some reasons)

we had a very elaborate steamBoat dinner yesterdAy complete with seafood, fish, meat, prawns, pacific clams and fresh scallops from *aussie! (and vege of cos, sth un-animal to munch on at least)! iN the middle of diNner, phengz suggested on opening a bottle of wine and boy she can drink! *guzzles guzzles guzzles like she would empty a bottle of Evian down her throat* "licks lips* *hmmMmyums*

Wacko Phengz in all her Mighty toMato-ness!

this vainpot couldnt care less if her eYes are squiNting when this picture was taken! hahaa! *cos she's drunK* and everythiNg on her face is really red except for heR yAlo looking nose, as opPosed to Rudolph the Red-Nosed ReindeeR. (u cant see it here cos Sony Ericsson takes pRecisely not what u wanna capture sometImes, bother!)

and theN later in the night, we had the infaMous -cutting-cake-session-. i was baffled if i shud light 15, 56 or 11 candles! hahaa! i lighted ONLY one in the end, just a number to represent the 3 of them! we had an awesoMe yuMmylicious Blackforest Cake whicH mum tooK the trOuble to baKe thhat very afternoOn beforehand.

chocolate shavings from dark cooking choccIe!

till the garnishing part (the finishing details), she realised she couldnt fine any chocolate shavings for the middle part of the cake! so she cleverly substitute them with..

Chocolate CHIPS!!

choc chIpS!! they are yUmmy noNetheless, melts in ur mouth, not on the cake!

the cHips maKe the cake looK a lil too spotty on the top view! ahhaa. dot dot dot. can play tic-tac-toe, lol. yuMMy nonetheLess,chip or choc. i sapu-ed the maraschino cherries this time(i used to hate them.. )

Me, Meng & May : i looK too Happy to waNna choMp the caKe whOle.. *sniGgers*

choc. shaVINGS On the WHOLE CAKE!!!!!!! wanna try making that nexttiMe!!!!!! so sinful...!

to cap off the very memoRable nite, me and Meng walked in the garDen for a bit to *complete* the birthday celebration. don't ask me why, i too think its odd to walk in the garden at a very late 11pm clad in my pyjas,and her in her new clothes! it was a nite with Bright mOon but no staRs so we head back into home and retired eaRly in bed as we weRe so exhausted.

i feel fat as i lay down trying not to think of food i taken earlier.

but i pigGed all the same, after sendiNg the last sms to teds.

zzz OInk zz

2006-03-08T10:57:00.000+08:00

today's post will be title-less because there's nothiNg really speciFic i wanna talk about. i woKe up toDay havIng a suDden gatal-ness to wantiNg to do lots of tyPing.

as i couldnt fInd anythiNg in my assiGnmenT to tyPe yet, and tHere are no One in Msn that i can chat to at the tIme of the mornIng i resoRted to blOgging.

in a conversation not long ago with my dear cousin Bryan he mentiONed he doesnt wrIte his eMo-s on his blog anymore. i guess it's feeliNg like u have exposed too much of ur personal feelings for whomever who view it, at the same time showiNg the weaKer u, and NO MAN wants to be thought as a WIMP!

but i said to him " Its practically the only place i go to when i am down "

its there i am searching for someone (place) to shout out
its there regardless day or night
its there no matter what (and thankfully it hasnt gotten ears)
its there when i am awake alone and no one is quite awake to listen
its there the times when i wanna voice out but dont feel like any feedbacks!

hMm.

everythiNg is so great about bloGging really

'cept that to forget u r pouring ur emotions in a PUBLISHED blog for the wOrld to see maKes u no diffeRent from people who whIne about theiR problems openly. in fact its better gruMbling and bla-bla-ing when my sis's slowly drifting into sleep.

at least she will remember not even half of what i have said.

guess my rantings have a pretty lullaby-ic quality to it.

:S :S :S :S :S

anyway, here's what i had fOR breakFast ---->

its some-kind-of-a-lettuce + scrambled eggs + lightly sauteed chicken pieces + herbed butter gravy drizzled all over!

haha! its the yuMMilicios-est breakfast i have had this week,and though i must admit,the srambled eGgs arent cooKed as scraMbled as they shud look like. i guess non-stick pans never give u quite the same results chinese woks do!

*wrinkles nose*

bLeeps

2006-03-08T00:07:00.000+08:00

had a thorough long class this noon starting at around 2.. (and was still sketching as the lecturers arrived_fashionably late)

have the silly habit to have gOne through research after research on design and form and taking a helluva long time to digest digest digest and get it out on my own terms in my proposed design.

feel like a cow thats feeding on greens with a malfunctioning cant-digest-cellulose gizzard*

arGhhs.

it just bugs me so much that i want the best i can produce with the allocated limited span of time but i spend it hrs on research leaving a wee few mins for the execution *sketching it all out of cos!* *sketch in scraggly waGgy wiGgly lines* huMMphhhs * but i still like!* so there! lol!

tutorial went alarmingly and surprisingly well for me, in fact my work got mentioned a few times i cant help but feel guilt creeping like smoke veils hungrily choking me from behind.

*i finished that in less than less than HALF AN HOUR kays!*

i COULD have done better than if i had shifted the extra 30mins from research to sketching for good then!

*though i must admit,i can sketch in a jiffY, Or even in a flash when i am paNicky!

DANGz!

tralalalalalala.

went home with a gleeful smile on my face

even the annoying heat is starting to feel nothing more than a warm caress on my bare shoulders as i walked out of the college entrance.

nothing feels better than having the sun smiling back at me :P:P

tra la la la la lal la!

gotta start on new stage after this,hmmph

the sooner i get past this the better i feel i tell myself with a wistful smiley.

yes it certainly does,
today was a great exaMple.

p/s: bumped in2 Garry after class today, thanks for the invitation Garry(if u are reading this), was thoughtful that u asked .. :)

:: one smIley for you! ::

::: and oNe huGgie wuGgie foR teDdy! for tht simple coMforting conversatioN afteR my shoRt exchange of sth with bro :::

as for now,
i shall sleep
in . - . peace.

gOodnite!

2006-03-02T22:55:00.000+08:00

and who is that moron to have saved my template changes!
my web layout tuRned into a *tequila shot* design layout available at blogger's!
now i AM <---------------------------THIS----------------------------------------> frustrated to noe that i DONT Have any back up for my last change of my weBbie design! DARNEDEST!

(maybe there aRe back ups, but ainT the LATEST) AgRHHHHHHH!

i duNno who COULD have cHanged it apart from myself!!!!

i just hope i aint that moRon who Caused myself proBleMs to re-create the design layout all over agaINS!! DoInk!!

i miss my teddy so much!

i miss my teddy so much!

i miss my teddy so so so so much!

*roaRs*

missing teddy + lose my blog design = frustratEd!

2006-03-02T14:21:00.000+08:00

how often do u wake up having a sudden craving to instant noodles for breakfast

well guess what..

thats what i HAD for breakfast toDay!!! lol

mum and dad left early for morning walk, and there's simply nothing that appeals to my tuMmy except instant noodles. so the funniest sight when u walk into me and bro thsi morning is both of us sitting at the coffee table slurping on our noodles.. (finally have sth in common heh//)

mum came back a short while, left her marketing supplies and chao-ed off again. a fren came, dropped off some fruits and she chao-ed as well. then shortly after that, bro got his shower,and we all chao-ed too, to fetch him to school! i feel like a part time driver now, seriously i do! but ironically i hardly fetch myself around, not to college unless im goiNg to the liBrary..

i feel a lot better toDay..much betteR than yestErday when the flutterbys butterflys keep fluttering in my tummy. its not hearing a word from teddy that woRries me so much! and so far away! its the distance that made me thInk the craziest things that might have happened to him! *darns*

not noeing how to be the daughter my pareNts want me to be

2006-02-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

therefore i shall be the daughter i wanna be then!:) Hhahahahahaha

Aurora Borealis part 2!

2006-01-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

lol! i cant believe this, but i have finished one theMe toDay,
the Aurora one i prOmisEd yesteRday!! :>

here's showing u a sneak pEek-

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hehe...
gettiNg bored befOre cny can get me inspired instantly as fast as iN a DAY!

wish its waitINg for cny over and over again!!!
at least brain juices will be flowing smOOthly and pOOr Ms.A(i hate her so much i CAN'T use heR real name) has no reasoN to not adore my worK, Ngekngek
lol!

did i mention yesterDay (maybe i was Too frustrated by it)
that i have to work oN touch-ups on my final suBmissioN last weEk?
daRn, what is the holIday then, when i have to yanK my braIn out and start milkIng the ideas out like u would do to a cow,

except u doN driNk it, but fill theM up in a nice juicy waterballoOn and aiM it bulls eyes straiGht at Ms.A's face! haha!!!!!!!!!!!

i am tired of mentioNing stupid Ms.A for now.
its just so not woRth it
i doN wanna remeMber every cny by her smug lOOk oN heR faCe eacH time i see heR
the ugliest wrInkliest manDarIN orange loOks fantastiC beside her

i am happy with my themiNg at the moment

maybe its the fRustRatiOns that geaRed up that knacK for desigNing theMes?

all i can say is eachtime i see her face in the picture window in my mind
my hands ball up in distoRted fists *roaRs

hoPefuLly don balls up Fist when i sleep later
i had a nightmaRe lastnite, don recall with whom in it but i was tossiNg the entire nite like squid on the grill
better sleep toDay i hope.

dreams of the northerN lights and fluFFy cloUds

zzZzz

Aurora Borealis

2006-01-25T18:55:00.000+08:00

bored while i was waiting for cny to arriVe, drew aN aurora to entertain myself, ho hum

had the whole entire noon affixed to the pc, not really doINg anythiNg (as to contrary to past months afFixed to the pc fOR a reasoN!) fiGured a few trIcks usiNg pHotoshop cs while i was readiNg up tutorials posted up in Good-Tutorials.com.

its a proCess,

i get excited (when i see an interesting and very neat tricK!)

then inspired (wanNa do stH siMilaR....)

Bored (after tryiNg the uMpteeNth tiMe and the Effects arent satisfactoRy)

then giVe up

then it staRts froM step 1 again

and thats what i have came up, drawiNg me FaV!~ aurOra boReaLis!!!! and i used bLue (which is suPPosedly to bring a ratheR dull, but i'd used a viBraNt blUe fOrthis!)'

wishINg foR the bOredOM to go away,wish it away!!!!!!!

but i kept remindinG myselF that semester will start on the 13th of February and i'd better make gOod use of the hol-while-it-is-here-!!!

i'll get bacK to themIng foR the meantiMe and get one doNe befoRe the valentInes and pOst it in deviaNtart as pRomised!

an Aurora theme anyOne?:>:>:>

Joy to The Assignments in 12 Days of Torture (not ChristMas,dangz)

2006-01-04T20:59:00.000+08:00

2006-01-01T22:03:00.000+08:00

to support the online petition : BAN AEROSOL FOAM SPRAYS pls click ----> here
for more infos on the topic go Here
as for why i am putting that all up

more elaborations in upcoming entries

chaos peePs!
HappY neW yeaR!

its all about me, in my head

2005-12-31T01:56:00.000+08:00

its due time i stop being the myself i dislike to be
time to stop, observe and re-evaluate
stop, listen, snuffle, poke my meerkat head up, down, turning it from left to right and back

stop being pretentious
stop pretending u dont mind
stop smiling
stop resuming what u havent stop doing

stop at the spot
spot on the clock
stop

stop making a big fuss
and get all that energy to better release that atleast ensures a return

stop being silly
u have got it all out
and u shud feel bad enough to have even let it out

repent

go to the tallest mountain in ss2
go to the deepest river in ss2

and may the tallest rebound the voices from reaching the lowliest of earth
and the secrets brought by the strongest of currents into the deepest of depths
and may no living creature man or woman unearth the childish find

get away thoughts
just stop, get away
get drifted far with the wind
and may my secrets be safe tucked softly in the clouds
safely tied with silver ribbons

rain should it feel burdened
and storm shud it feel provoked
tear away shud it choke
allowing rays lighten the load

andblablablablabla

what crap

its just me , all in my head
and yes, ss2 the location
being the only place which map's etched sharply in my mind

(and thats clearly stupid enough on top of all tHAt nonsense above)

Early Birds Catch tHe Nicest Worms

2005-12-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

woKe up alarMingly without the alarM clock alarmingly ringing in my ears this mornIng!
meeting up with wen at 9 at my place before we head off to One. Utama fOr an early screening of *Pride & Prejudice*
she's one awful crazy lot of fun when i hung out with her,
which tells why we are friends since we are 14!
Kev and Yenn are suPpose to arrIve at 10, but after we collected the free ticks, they are still at Yenn's.

Movie altogether was a great one, i enjoyed it as it sounded so English, and the male and female Lead are SO made for each other as they both have dark hair. ( i mean.... SILLY! thats not the only reason of course) hehehe. it was better than i'd expected, (it was more than a pretty female lead actress_played by Knightley and a very dark brooding handsome male lead actOR, OKAYs.!)

i like Keira Knightley next to Julia Stiles. They both have that air of saRcasm and speak with an unbelievable speed with added spite(not spat!) and strength and determination! well actually i like them both just as much! Keira is the British vers. of the American Julia! lol! Alexis Bledel playing daughter in the Gilmore Girls is just similar, but she's a pixie-r, gentler, softer angelic version of these both! i don't fancy getting verbally attacked, but its cool talking in such speed, pronouncing every word precisely, stating every meaning clearly! whOa!!! for added kick sprinkle in a few pinChes of SaRcasM* lol!

had luNch at Jack's Place with me playing with my food and not really in the mood for eating. Wen and i shared a Grilled Chicken with Sour Plum Sauce with Sesame and Coriander. it sounds fancier than it looks when the waiter brought food to our table. i don believe it's plum sauce. it isn't even <--THIS_close--> to tasting tangy.

bLWUekkkk.......................................

poke at a few morsels and had a few niBbles and the rest of the tiMe was spent yaCking.
i guess talking is my favourite hoBby now (with the right company oFcos!) it was not until around 3 when we asked for the bill and headed our separate ways. sent wen home and i began heading to aunt's to pick a few *utensils*

reacHed home, got myself heading to the warDrobe first to change into comfy-er clothes (was wearing white offf-shoulders with jeans)

received a url link from dee while chatting with her.
dee and i has this thing for reading up horoscopes and laughing at how amusingly true thEse stuff can turned out to be.

and it seems that Cancers are very much like......................this! look below

Cancers ( June 21- July 22)

++ the plus side ++
You are very kind and you regard your friends like they are your family. You are very patient, gentle and compassionate to others, and are the first one to give a friend a hug when they have had a bad day. You truly care when friends tell you their problems. If you have a younger sibling, you are very protective of them because you love your family so much!

--the fLip siDe--
You tend to be on the shy side! Being shy can be a problem when you really want something and are afraid to speak up. You get your feelings hurt often, and instead of getting to the heart of the matter and fixing it, you tend to let it build up inside. It's okay to tell someone how you are feeling, and with your Cancer care, you will do it with kindness! Also, watch those mood swings!

* Likes *
your birthday remembered by friends -yeah!!! who likes to be foRgotten?
keeping a photo album -with no pictures of myself in it,cos i am SO not photogenic
hugs -comforting........
collecting things -seashells! and momentos!

* Dislikes *
those who forget names and dates -lol!
having to handle a crisis - am paniCky when it happens
yelling -dont see a point in that
losing things -or people

*Compatibility*
The Cancer/Scorpio couple makes for a dynamic and fiery(??? sounds hot doesn't it!) match! Both signs are very loyal to their family and friends and when they are matched together carry that loyalty into their relationships. Cancers and Scorpios are like magnets to each other. When they are together, it can seem like there is no one else in the room! But be careful of Scorpio's brooding personality can often be taken too personally by a sensitive Cancer. If they can keep that in check, these two stand a chance at a passionate and lasting romance!

ooohoo hahaa.
i am so sensitive! say sth and i will itch all over, LOL
HAHAHhhhahaha

dangz

i've also read elsewhere that Cancers are the Most Emotional stars in the ENTIRE horoscope

thats awful of that to make us Cancers look like whiny babies, hMmppph

*rajuking edi.....*

for more sensitive cancer infos, click here

the wEekend's ((merry)) itinerary

2005-12-27T15:10:00.000+08:00

had a gOod nite rest the nite befOre, it was a loNg (but short) Boxing day (26/12/05) spent all in one place suPPosedly doiNg my model, but ending up doIng some other stuFf as well. Lunch@ BV was great, it was first time having toMyam on an empty stoMache without having to end up with gastric after that. saW soMe decoRated gingerbread housEs, they lOok toO adOrable a buNch to be muNched, all dressed up in coOkie/cereal rOofs and windows, M&M's, marshmallows, caNdies, chOcolate brIck walls, coloured croquant floors!! so sacchariNe-loaded!! (shivers like jelly now, lol)

started woRk afteR lunch, redrawed my 1st and 2nd floOr plan, trace again with gRids, plot points onto my board, cut, paste, but looking at it i've only done so .... little! dangz! Had a very simple yet unusual dinner, steamed chicken (stuffed with red dates) with boiled potatoes in jackets and butterhead lettuce salad! lol. having dinner without rice for a change at friend's place :) thaNk you tedDy for cOoking for us! *grIns*

drove home at approx 10pm feeling a feeling i havent felt before. it wasnt tired or exhausted. it was a contented feeling. the sort that leaves u breathing calmly, suddenly driving home isn't something i dread doing, or woRrying what lies beyond ready to leap on me at the destination. suddenly all these don't matter anymore, puzzles me. lol

toDay i chatted with dee agaiN and she sent me some piCcies that werE taken with her camera. so i decided to post some in toDay's entry as a certain teDdy complained about reading a *boring* bloggie with no visuals.

meant to blog about the field trip to pd and chRistmas diNner but i guess i am tOo lazy now trying to recall so i'll just let the piccIes do the talkiNg... well here's one taken in Port Dickson when we'd just arrIved! dee so Can't wait to take pictures but this was a quiCk one by ouR fren anNisa! everyone just wHipped out theiR cameras and start clicking away!

in Port Dickson....................................

dee & i at PD when we arRived, steppiNg on a whOle lot of pine/durian cones. ummm. foot massage anyone?

can u see hair getting into my mouth? lol. that was the wiNd! it was blowing at (seemingly every direction) because wherever i stand, my hair lOoked blowN asKew!!!

the weather was great as the clouds are doiNg a supErb job curtaining the rays of sun. the pouR earlier helped made the beach breeze cooler too. it was a happy day to hop and frolick by the shore, kicking the sand and getting washed by the waVes...

after much exploring, we settled for an area to stack our belongings and were split into groups. We have about 4 juniors in our group of 8 and our fIrst tasK was to complete a saNdcastle within an hour, resembling as much as the oRiginal building, as detailed as can be.

Was the slowest group to start as we had no clue what building to build. No Petronas Twin Towers or Eiffel ToweR or Chrysler Building!!! then Megna came along and decided to join us in our sandcastle building, she suggested a certain *city ruins of the Mohhenjo-Daro* we knew it is NOT a building but we all knew how easy it is to build a ruin!(no matter how DETAILED! haha) the lecturers aka the judges (suRprisingly) approved of our *building* so we started runNing to and fro fetching water in pails, diggIng, softening the sand, making a good mix with seawater, erecting the buildings and making it as *ruin-ish* as possible! The cylindical tower makes it the hardest to build as dee and alEx had to build and rebuild over a number of times just to get it stand! 3 parts of sand to 1 parts of water......... or it it 2:2???? errr...

higgledied - piggledied mass of sand - the city ruins of Mohhenjo-Daro! does that look like early civilisation to u???

Although we didn't win the best sandcastle, but we didnt bag the woRst either! *phews* lol. the group who lost is going to get buried in sand! but it turned out we don have all time diGGing for the 8 of them so kenji and wayNe will just do as pRoud rePresentatiVes, lol. don't have the pic at the mo, but its hilarIous when u get to see it, readers under 18, u aRe ForBidden! lol

came across thEse crab holes(homes) while strolling by the beacH! resEmble a lot like the *tong yuens* i made that morning, albeit not in that muddy colour..silly!

a self-taken piccy of meself!! HaiR askew-again!!!! the wiNd is eveRywHere! definitely not a place for wigs...

was a great trip altogether, i just forgotten one thing and it was my sunblock, everything else was just nice, the company, food, activities, weather

i just SO don't like my lobster appearance now, thats all. lol

on Christmas Eve.........................................

dee & i,on our way to midvalley foR christmas eve dinner..i am so blackenned!!!!!! arGHhh

dee and i, (again) all decked in white for the white christmas!! a few falling snowflakes will just complete the beautiful atmosphere :)

hanging icicles, frOzen froNds, barren tWigs, an elfin cottage, trees laden with pretty baUbles and twinkling fairylights in the Centre Court of Midvalley Megamall.

this is dee and i again!!! lol! we loOk great thanks to the photographer, the lighting, the decoration and that idiot whose body partially came in and ruin the whole thIng lol

at San Francisco's Steakhouse...............................

camera is every gurl's best companion........not mine! taken by dee,i cant even hold a camera still for a decent picture......

satiated, satisfied and filled to the briM...laurie's had his hand over his pot belly,lol!!

the three stooges -Victor, Kwooi & Laurie

on the other side:: dee, i and wats

victor :: all i want for christmas is my.........N70 (miraculously Fishes it out from his pOcket, ta-Da!)

all in all the dinner was... okay.. except for the turkey i guess, which was supposed to be tonight's highlight anyway. staffs in SFS don't seem to be able to diFfer chop from slice. i guess no more SFS next year, we'll head elsewhere where people understand english better, and spare us from having chopped turkey serve in a plate as they would when you visit a chicken rice shop...... no chicken rice for another consecutive year....

as the hour is still early, and i have to be home before the clock strike midnite, footman turned into mouse, car turns to pumpkin (poor wats), and we have yet still exchanged pressies, so we head to Friendster Cafe for a second round, (before they head for a 4th and 5th and 6th....)

we had the pressies all laid out with number labels and for 2 times wats toOk his own number. i dUnno how lucky he is, till the 3rd and final time, i tOok his number! Lucky me lol! there's a snowglobe, a fanCy stuFfed clock, a kungfu kick-ass keychain,bodem coffee mugs, liquer chocs and dOggieshaped calendar!!!! we each tooK a *bottle* of liquoR from Vic's pressie and drank to ...er... (i can't remember, but was it the merrIest chRistmas?!) lol!

at Friendster Cafe.....................................

wats :: A cloCk!!!??!! u wanna me to die-AR????? (roars with laughter)
while uncle octi stares into his very own dreamy space........

i & dee :: sharing a very cool blended Peach Friendstercino

to cap off the memorable nite, i was given a pressie and was told to open in when clock strike midnite! i hope its something that stops me from being Cinderella!!! :> lol

well nothing like that, but something really sweet! an entertwiNed two heart pendant and a chain ;) awww.. thaNks for the gift teDdy... hugshugs

[[MerRy]] cHristMas.

2005-12-25T05:39:00.000+08:00

lol, the paRtY has just beguN.
and happily i am seated in my liVing rooM, watChing Secret Window (i am so scared, wince) HAHAH
laughiNg at those people who excitedly bounce and danCe to the rhythm of loud music,
and yeaH i mean Stuffed together like sardines wrIgliNg in theiR tins,
HOw LOL-!

just me and the soUR grape syNdrome , Lol
this year is yet another year,(i have tURNED 21, but accOrding to parents, it doesnt MEAN i have TURNED into a responsible person... and bla blabla)
they are the first set of parents who make clubbing seeM like aN illegal and despicable activity< (not to mention make other Parents lOok bad) by sayiNg..

"We love u, and care enough to woRry u'll get into trouble.. u noe people thEse days are very mean, and we doN't want u to bump into them" and Blablablabla BlAA

foolishly they believe that ONLY in tHese plaCes i WILL buMp into tHese people (who have bad intentions oR whatsoever) and they thiNk i am a 4year old, defenseless and hopeless in the midst of this people.

oh yeah... so EVERY other parent in the woRld care less of theiR children's safety and doN't love them enough to stop them huh..... oh yea nice try
try that on my 15year old cousin bro_he'll holler sth nasty onto ur face

HULLO!! i have been to the nastIest plaCes and back,in a pieCe so whats wrOng with goinG to parTy with group of trusty frens who are there to loOk out for me..
and yaDa yada yada.. " You will neveR know what they will do when they are drunk....thiNgs get outta hand sometImes"
oh yeah gOod poiNt.!
i want to read that as * it is unsafe to drink and drive* but instead i see a RED SIGNPOST clearly hollering at me * u might get unwantedly pregnant* (or pregnantly unwanted????)

and now they make everYONE else in the woRLd look like animals (my close buddies included)
and thanks dad, for the clear hints
while they ARE the only angels, halo, feather wings and all
not to mention patronising
i AM defenseless (against my parents' constant shooting.....)
ssighs....

Just two Days ago, after a night out at fren's place to celebrate her biRthday and another fren's , they MAde ME look like the MOST irresponsible persoN on earth by sayiNg,
" I told u to come back early, and u came back past 12 last nite, and was on the phone till about 1am"
" Do u noe how woRRied i aM when tHe hoUse is left defenseless waiting for u to be hoMe without the alarM system activated? "
" i Cant slEep all nite till it's switched on u noe that, it makes me wOrry"
" People can just come in and break into the house while everyone is asleep U NOE THAT (and god noes what u are doiNg out there, taking weed i hope not)

i get the indication that THe safEty of THE HOUSE is their main concern now
and logically, if i explain to them why i am late,
it is not goiNg to help me fall back on
or make my house a less susceptible victim of RObbery!

so..
whats the point of explaining really
....

thats so much of me that i have shared today

after all. its the season of giving and sharing....

yeaH, before i forget
MeRRy ChristMas & a Happy New yeaR

every chRistmas eve...

2005-12-24T10:42:00.000+08:00

its the mOrniNg of chrIstmas eVe,
woNdereD how it will feel like in UK rite now. (lol)

dreamiNg heh
now in Malaysia, had a great gatheriNg the 2 nitess before
at suewen's place! (she talks in pence and pounds and snow and how-NICE-UK-REALLY-is)
its the first time we have gathered as a whole group siNce year 2001!
thats a whole lot 5years,
fortunately i doN see 5 years of age on these faces!
they all lOOked practically the same
but most noted i loOk alot healthier since the lasttime they saw me (yes, i had a bad sun tan from PD earlier)
LOL!
left albeit late around 12, as we stayed to siNg yet(another biRthday soNg)to sHihui (dec 23rd baby)
pOpped estheR and shihui back to theiR nests and begaN to head to mY own after that
reachEd hoMe aPproX 12-25, (thats an HOUR past my curfew,!!)
and dad was (obviously) wasnt very pleased with that
but i maDe no eFForT to look upset when he was *sarcastically* bringing it up over dinner (with mum) which WAS indeed a mean THING to do, cos then i hear mum yammerINg after hIm...
i just kept a straight face, lol
doN't want the slightest smallest thIngs to affect my temperaments.
cos it wasnt in very good shape really

with people making last minute plans and not really informing me about it
i've had it with last year, won't put up with it this year
will just ignore things(or people) that upset me
and focus on things that delights me (like my couRsework, bLWeUk!)
and thanks to myself for reminding, yikey

has something to loOk forward to this evening
(shove the bad thoughts sue, shove it back)
lol
talking to myself does help
esp when no one understands the *sue language. lol

this is so much of depression on eve's morninG
(shove it back again....)!

will blog about tonIte's diNner
till theN, sEe ya!
and Have a MeRry Little Xmas.!!!!!!

feel bored guilty, AGAIN!

2005-12-19T19:51:00.000+08:00

have a new layout officially launched on Sunday night
i don;t know how much i like it, because it is just one day siNce i have looked at it
probably get bored with it in a few weeks time
the previous layout lasted a good few months :)

i have grown to love purPle now, used to looK at it in a disgusting way
like octopus puke or sth :)
oddly its suppose to be a dark colour, but the darker the colour gets
the more vibrant it appears to my eyes
(am i hallucinating?)
but i adoRe the colouR now,
and that is why i'd include it as the main theme in my layout.
simple (just tWeAk the colouR!)

went to college around 3this noon
mum decided to let me drive toDay because my ttrl is just a good half an hour
and she is far toO busy to stay a gOOd half an hoUr theRe till it fiNishes.
she's leaving for thailand toMorrow morning, she and my 2nd sis.
loOking at the breaking news scares me,
apparently at my aunt's place,(which is in Jitra) the waters from the flood has risen to about more that 5 ft high?
honestly i don't know if she's exagerrating oR not beCause i pictUred it lOOking rather riDiculous,
from the serious tone of hers, she and my cousins had definitely shifted to another aunt's place on a higher ground, leaving the belongings at home, one the FIRst FLoOR!!!!!
i am now picturIng the halF suBmeRged hoUse.
and a lanDsCape of Jitra with One stOrey hoUses in a Huge huGe sea of nescafe-coloured water. eeuws (and btw,she stays in a double stoRey semi detached)
kedah is not a long way from Thailand
But Chiangmai and Chiangrai is a goOd distaNce from the flat plains..
lets hope it is like what i think it is...
mum maDe lasagne and blueberry cheesecake for us toDay!!!!
teehee!! scared we starved to death at home without her!!!
but who's complaining about haviNg lasagne aNYTIME we want!!
The woRld's best soMemOre!!!! lol!
thanK mmy!! (short for mummy)
(she makes the woRld's best vege dumpling, blackforest cake, orange chocolate mousse, her signature cendolcake-fav among my closest frens!! and not forgettiNg lasagNe ofcos!!!:)
lucky dad for having her, and lucky us as her children:)
unlucky us when she gets ganas
ooooOOoo - cabBBuuutttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL!!

i hope we have lasagne left for her when she comes back
because she reckons its the best she'd tasted so far!!!! lol
poor mum n phengs....
i heard thai food gives u diarrhea HAHAHAHAHA
(thats for phengs cos she's just recovered from diarrhea from her trip to PangkoR)
she looks a LOT more slender now,
maybe i shud do sth..... *ngekNgekNgek* (evil laughter)

more assignment suBmssions to anticipate
less people at home
quieter environment
frozen yuMMies in the friDge

Pd trip on 22nd
christmas eve diNner in saN francisco's
gathering with frens

simply too much

i thInk i will just have nothing but the last 2 days!
thats so much for wishful thINking
put that to better use for inspiring design ideas

and......................... back to assignments
*roaRs!~

i sat dowN chiN on my haNds wanderiNg to a laNd far Far far away......

2005-12-18T19:04:00.000+08:00

Destiny's Hand by Mandy

How can I begin to explain what my heart wants you to know
I stumble over my words and can't express it even though,
You make my world revolve around a picture perfect dream
That in itself is more I know than maybe what it seems.
Gathering the many thoughts of you I write it out in verse
I have fallen victim of the final soul mates curse.
To be in love and be apart is the hardest thing to do
I wish for a time that I can spend eternity with you.
And though you tell me patience is a virtue I should learn
Its not the being impatient part that holds to my concern
Its the distance that we strive to close each and every day
It's knowing that you want me and love me the same way.
It's the way you've shown me how to smile no matter what the time
The way my heart has found a way to say to you in rhyme
The way you always seem to know exactly what to say
Oh how I wish that in my heart forever you would stay
I know that we have just begin this journey of our soul
But I had to let you know how your love has made me whole
I had to make it clear to you that what I sense is fate
My heart wants you to know now, before it is too late
That when you feel you're ready to journey down this road
I’ll help you carry burdens, I'll half the heavy load
The next step we take together for all the world to see
That I was made just for you and you were made for me

p/s: many thx to cheat keong who sent me this poem
although it wasnt written by him, but by an anonymous writer just by the identity of *mandy*
its comforting to know that such great but gentle wOrds that can soothe and help heal the heart..

letHargiC

2005-11-14T13:04:00.000+08:00

doNt have the time to bLog nowAdays.
i love my life
i love myself
but i lack sleep
and i open my eyes wakiNg up to a new day..
with gastric pains..
oh,how comforting

its ail's bday toDay, Happy 21st BirTHday ail!
and wats' is toMoRRow.and he's 23!
i feel little and naive lookIng at that diffeRence numerically
but we get aloNg fIne! *wiNks

luNch maDe me feel not any betteR
it woNt make the gurgling sound go, or halt the bubBliNg cauldron inSide of me
if solids don help, liquid should

hmmphs
i giVe up

laters.

stRiKe!!!!

2005-10-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

fOOood!!
yummies!!

we (me and Dee) shared a spaghetthi carbonara at zUUp! for luNch toDay.

yuMMies!! niCe! finger-licking delicious

received the feedback from module leader this mornIng, it wasnt very good. hMms. i definitely have to work even harder in the following stage! ganbatei to myself, i want to do better the next time.

watched the our frens play bowling when we got back from shopping! how dare they start a game at 1-20 when we actually have class at 2! the 4 goofs (and goons) performed well- lah, we had a good laugh watching them make a fool out of themselves! :>

rushed back just in time for class, thinking we are late but it turns out the lecturer was even later! she must have known us too well *winks* lol!

buMped into junwey toDay at the library after lecture, he's all decked in red like X*Mas, with a red nose and fake moose hoRns then he'd be Rudolph (as in the red-nose moose!!) hahaa! he had a hairstyle that looked as if he jumped out of bed in a haste pulled on a red-shirt and comes to col still sleepy-eyed, 'cept its already eveniNg so all traces of sleepy eye gone edi. haha!

its half past 9 nOw! this is all for toDay, wanna get glued to my teev.

.....

nites!

yuPPiedo!!!

2005-10-26T17:42:00.000+08:00

not a good start, was in the bathroom since morning, head bent over my tummy wondering when that excruciating pain gonna go die and leave me (alive and breathing). although it was a cool morning i do not know why i am sweating but looking white. my eyes are teary. i hate it when aunty comes visit. i shall lock my door the nexttime.. :P

not very good in the afternoon too, not by the look of stormy grey clouds gathering in the sky, and after a short wait they decided to pour (like REAL haRd) they blew and blew and spatter sprays of rain and clog up drains and make the ldp look like a shallow but fast stream.

finished my presentation sheets finally, yUPPIedo! i meant to go sleep like a piggy for 12 hours staright but somehow i didn't, although the temperature cool and ideal for pigging and it would be nice after a few days to finally be able to curl in my warm cocoon, tempting huh, but NO! ended up here with an entry not going really anywhere, not makiNg really a point or making any difference. :P i hope that is not where my dissertation is going ;> which is why i have to take the available time now to check through the draft i gave to Leong on mOnday and get sumthing improVed froM there. he seemed so sure i could do it , where else i still feel like although i ve been in it so long, it doesnt seem to get me to the point of understanding it better, but the more i sink into it the more questions i ask and the bigger my headache gets, becos i havent found the answers, and i don't know when i shall.. (being whiny again)

can't wait till thuRs, cos it will be friDay soon,(meeting wen for lunCh and shoPping!) but cant wait for fri to end cos then it will be beginning of Saturday and nearer to Sunday and getting nearer to Tuesday! haha! but after tUesday i want Tuesday to stay there as loNg as pOssIble cos then if tHursday comes then friday shall and i am Back in college again on monday (no play plays oredy)

(there i go whinIng again.. stoP Sue, Stop!!)

its almost dinnertime, and i so want to watch teevee now, wanna get my eyes affixed to the fat cube for once.

wanna take a shower before dinner time cos Laurie told me once that if u do after shower, the u are bound to pile on pounds, (which explains my python-ed state)

____________________________

and for the how-many-ieth time i am listening to Kelly Clarkson's Because of You.......
(when i actually told my sis not to play that song else i will get sick of it)
...

i got a wOozy heaD, sore hand aNd achiNg back, i want my hol!

2005-10-25T23:39:00.000+08:00

its only the 1ststage and i am owedyfeeling the tension oredy
for the past 2 days i did not sleep till 5-6 am, and i drag myself out 10-11 the next morning. i seriously have no idea how i am going to live through that continuously for the next 8 months! 'cept for hols, which i am planning to spend most of my hols with frens and myself (recuperating from sleep loss and exhaustion) the remaining time will be spent at home, hopefully peacefully harmoniously with the other members of the family. i want a quiet week off, (and its oNLY a Weeek/???? i want MOORREEE!!!)

haha. doubt i could keep the ambient athome quiet, because i am the main reason the noises came out most of the time. i hoPe i spend the one week decently and appropriately on thiNgs that i plan to do, and distributing theM equally between the days or else i shall go berserk with the remaining days doiNg absolutely nothiNg (which is a good reason why u'd ask me, why are u screamINg ur head off liDat, Sue!!!!) :P

but fiRstly, i waNt toMorrows to end quick! and foR that, i am goiNg to work quick and fast and hopefully the respond would be good. that will make me look fwd for the hols witH sth to smIle about at least :> (apart froM having to get some good rest) sth to feel glad of when i have accomplished sth. :):) i do liKe that feeliNg!!! its the same feeling in the kitchen when i attempt baking after learning and observing mum and when the results are good, u could almost see the chocolate chip cookie smiling at u with all its chips neatly arranged in an :) arch. *wiNks*

i hope i see oNe oR two choccie chip cookie smiling at me toMorrows in the studio..
*griNs* :)

silVer liNiNg in eVeRy cLoud?

2005-10-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

added a brand new soNg i heaRd over the waVes few days baCk just lately,
has a shatteriNg fRustratiNg note to it, and its helpiNg me scReaM my feelINgs that have been kept pent up in myself for weeks now
thats a gReat feeliNg haviNg it released w/out causing chaos at hoMe ( pHews..)

i was stariNg into emptyness when somethiNg shiny that lOOks like a neat buNdle oF shimmeRing tHread caught my eyes. like fine woven silver droplets, reflecting every ray of sunlight. lil rainbows. make beliefs. illusion. mirage. i am seeing and conjuring all this behind my wateRy eyes.

i looked intently at it. closer. nearer, and finally CLeaRer.
yes. this was the precious gift i had once lost few montHs back
a gift from someone dear

i found it back again
afteR loOKing woRRiedly every nook and cranny of the house for 2wholeweeks
once a friend told me, "What's lost is meant to be lost"
but, i did not give up hope
i know with a feeling in my heart that if i keep on searching i will find it,

yes i did!
in the most unexpected place (bliMey!)
from that day onwards
i kept it safely, i wear it as frequent as i could
and won't it out of my sight
for fear of losing it again

this tiny trinket has been a constant reminder to me since its lost(and found.. )
and the lost of the person who gave it to me
i know i believe coincidence too much to give it a 2nd thought
but coincidences which happens twice cant be merely just coincidence..

4 years ago, i lost an object
an object which signifies a 3-year relationship of trust, faith, love and friendship
as ironically as it sounds, the relationship went down into the black murky waters,
as the bracelet had, when i was riNsing charcoal residue off my hands
i believe it was a bad omen, like a warniNg something isnt goINg as right as it was expected to be.

toDay i hold my 2nd bracelet, letting it frolick in my palm like drops of molten metal
and i am thaNkful i havent seen a pool of darkness surrounding it,
or even trying to taRnisH its brilliance, its purity and hope that it briNgs to me
puts back faith in believing,

but believiNg ....

what is believing the impossible ?

does believing in it makes it reachable?

does believing makes it real ..?

does believing make it possible?

today i stand where i am now
thaNkful for whatever that had been or had happened
regardless of how bad/good things may have turned out
for as much as our own decisions deteRmines iN creatINg the sharpest of turns or the smoothest of journeys
we have to face tHe consequences that lies in waiting for us
as each different route leads to yet another destination
unluckily this time we got lost
loSt looking for the "destination"
existiNg only in our own minds, but not on the maps
have we been in the daydream too loNg,
only to be awoken by the nightmare than shook us hard and mercilessly?
have we been blind all this while
or are they as real as we want them to be
before that foot-thick monster started making itself (un)comfortably cushioned in between tHe minute iNch-tHick gap that oNce exist.

life is precious
like a thin line of silver thread
it could snap into two
and be gone forever
i am grateful he's still here, not as who he used to be
but as a friend
i am grateful he is still alive
breathing the same air i breathe, treading on the same ground i walk on
doing the things that make him and people around him proud and happy,
and making differences in people's lives ( mine very much included)
and improving day by day to be a better person,
not for what he is not,
but by remaining the same person he oways was,
succeediNg in everythiNg he does and deserving the happiness he's seekiNg foR,
i believe he will ..

________________________________________________

i dread writing the end of an entry
for it keeps getting back to me that i might have missed out something important...

..

i'll keep that safe in my memorybox for another day's entry
but thats all foR now

(( xoxoxo ))

waViNg the whIte fLag

2005-09-18T14:25:00.000+08:00

do u wonder why sometimes u are surrounded inside out with a certain emotion
then a certain soNg comes along
and theN wHaM! it just hits u right there
and there's no turNing back really
i thought it is a normal response to avoid getting pained
just as simply as getting blown by a certain tune, melody or words
but just as i was listeniNg to it a work
i knew i had to come back with that soNg playing inmy pc while i am doing my work
i am uncertain whats making me letting me doing this to myself
but i guess i am enjoying the pain as much as i wanna rid it
again, maybe this is a great way to get myself accustomed to pain till
all that is felt is just an empty numbness
and a smile is as easy as faking a smile, unfeeling, cold and artificial

funny i didnt realise how much this song meant all this while
although dido was sorta an all time favourite
she just has a sorta husky mellow and motherly voice that soothes
and this time she'd just delivered the soNg perfectly
with a spRinkle of melancholy
its perfeCt

. :: Dido_White Flag :: .

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

i haVe to get tHis out!!!

2005-09-12T18:09:00.000+08:00

tiMe to upDate my blog when i can now
there's really hardly anything to say besides what i basically do everyday
last friday seemed memorable
i had a lOng day at woRk completing submissiOn drawiNgs for esarli
and dint get to leave till aPprox 11-30
that got mum & dad worrIed
so they droVe all the way up here to see that i reach home safely
kiNda iRritated me iN the begInnIng
as to why they'd not allow me to drive home alone at that houR
but i do see the poiNt and the reasons they tOOk all the trouble
just to ensure my safety
half the stReetlights arent working
the roads are holey and bumpy
coincidentally there had been two accidents that very day
one involving two cars completely crumpled like aluminium paper
and another involving a fight
and God noes who's tailIng me from behind
witH mean intentions
i had them behind me throughout the whole ride home
i must admit its pretty stressful
keepiNg my car at an acceptable speed of 50km/ph
on LDP!
sorry if i had been un-understandiNg
but i understand now..

but i kena bombed by them anyhow
because i drove around with no more gas in the car
i simply had no time to be frank
i was rushing to go work when i realise the tank's almost empty
and i was in the entiRe day workiNg w/out lunch
it was till i got into the car
i go
*dangz, and Caltex in front of my workplace owedy close
DarN Caltex,u arent there when i need u

i had an okay day on satuRday
as i had the whole mornIng( and nooN) in bed
to compensate for sleep loss last few days
had a quick lunch with dad and dad's fren in oldtown
and went to one.u after that to shoP for deBb's pResSie

i love suNday
suNday was the day i had a vicious quarrel with sis
not so much of a heated argument
but i must say i got pretty dissapointed by the way she behaved
i like the way she hurled those words at me
but inside i laugh and in turn ridicule her snide remarks
she's slowly turnIng into lil replicate of my elders
trying to change the way i am
the people i go out with
tHe choiCes i make
the time and whom i spend it with

try to get hold of ur own life before trying to touch mine
u don even have real frens who stand up with and for u
u say u have every right to do OR say what u want
then wheRe is mY right to chOose!?

u say people doN listen to u
and when u try harD to be nnice to people u doN get a siMilaR response
Try LooKing into the mIRror
i hope u lIke what u saw in there
cos thats what u tHink i am
but it was u all alOng

u doN even nOe how to stRike a nice conversation witH ur siBlings at home
doN even tRy to take control oF my liFe
cos ur very own is goIn down the draiN if u doN stop beiNg what u are
FAker!

aUg 31st! soMe inDepeNdence day...

2005-09-01T01:19:00.000+08:00

i was beiNg crabby the whole nite
i was crimson from neck up,talking lots of cra(p) and pinching
(poor wats)
it was okay the first 15 mins after the last sip
but after that i start feeling the heat rose to my neck and slowly seeping into my OREDy rosy complexion
darnedest
was barely a full mug
and there i go bragging i had 3.. and a Quarter
lols
i start to notice how severe it was not untill
i paid a visit to the loo in(in hartamas's cristo)
trust me the washroom is miniscule for a place/crowd like that
i saw an octopus looking back at me in the reflection,
oh dangz
patting my face with water didnt help
in fact i think its gonna help it get worse
so i gave up
i walk back hobbling miserably on my heels
tipsy BUT miserable
i tot i was suppose to get tipsy high and i;ll be laughing my ass off
but not this time

i like lastyear's merdeka eve
although we were walking all over town
blistery toes and soles
but there were at least more than the 6 of us

time does feel like it flies
i recall what happened some 10 days ago from today's date
and it feels like it happened a month ago
woNder what makes it seemed like a century ago when my time with loved one
just ticks away with extraordinary speed
just a wink then the moment has to end

tiMe with family just remain at a standstill no matter how mucH tiMe i have with them
probably we have less conversations, thus the lack of comMunication, less glances, less expRessioN , and eventually less trust
but time standiNg still doesnt mean i could take time for granted and think it is actually standing still
it was actually never standing still
it was ever moving
at a steady pace
it was just me
me in my slower pace
i have to catch up somehow
or it will ever seem standing still for me
like things never are gonna change

when time does freeze it doesnt mean time wasnt wasted
the thIng about me assuming it never really moved was probably i was too reluctant and stubborn and strong headed to make it move in the first place
i cant do much with wasted time which i assumed was frozen time
but i can do a lot with time that is ahead of me
available for me to make changes for myself, people around me and my environment

i am just imagining life with no tomorrow
no more time
there's just not enough time

......

gettiNg bLue-BlaCks eAsiLy

2005-08-28T02:08:00.000+08:00

Natasha Bedingfield has released a moving and heartfelt track called
“I bruise easily” and sings that she wants to be “handled with care”.

As the lyrics suggest, all of us can bruise easily when we open ourselves up to a relationship. The trouble is, life is made up of relationships whether it be with family, friends, partners or children, they all make or break our world – and how
fragile that world seems at times!

Here at Connect, we see many people who have had their world broken or damaged and although most of the bruises they sustain are emotional ones that cannot be seen, they are, nevertheless, just as painful.

But there is hope. It is possible to heal and move on, to develop and change. Counselling can sometimes be a way of finding a way through life’s problems.

From the feedback we get from former clients – it can make an enormous difference. We may not be dealing with physical injuries but the pain and desperation is just as real. The following quote is used, by permission, from a client who actually describes her emotional hurts in a physical sense;

“After months of hard, intensive soul-searching where raw wounds were opened up even further, I can finally say that I am leaving you with only a few sticky plasters. The scars, I know, will remain, but the searing pain is now a manageable dull ache. Connect, like an antibiotic, has enabled me to heal.” _but antibiotic leaves a horrible aftertaste_danGz

If you have been bruised and want some help, call Connect on 01276 24210; we care for all kinds of Problems, for individuals, couples and families.

:< :< :< :< :< :< :,< :'{ ;.<

seriously maybe i shud drop them a line or sth.......

i hear it singing from ur heart and it hurts so much to noe its as painful for u as it is for me
thank u for sharing this beautiful song with me

_sad yet beautiful_like the sunset

hoping sun will rise tomorrow

______:: i bruise easily ::_______

My skin is like a map
of where my heart has been
And i cant hide the marks
its not a negative thing
So i let down my guard
drop my defences down by my clothes
i'm learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

[Chorus]
I bruise easily so be gentle when u handle me
There's a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Cant scratch the surface without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints on a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them all over this heart of mine too
But if i never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So I'm learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

[Chorus]

Anyone who can touch you
can hurt you or heal u

Anyone who can reach you
can love you or leave u

So be gentle...

[Chorus]

I bruise easily
I bruise easily ..

::

2005-08-22T18:49:00.000+08:00

there's nothing that i do that makes them happy
or what i do that makes me happy they will aprrove of
and heck he asked me why it seemed i was oways against him
i was never oways agaiNst hiM!!
he was just never happy the way i am
never happy the way i look spoke act
never
and i shall never,
i will never forget his eyes
which my eyes pierced right out to drink into all its fieryness
without a feeling of guilt, or fear
but i feel the rims of my window blacken
as if darkness was claiming me,blurring my vision

as i make my way up
as my welled up emotions starting pounding on the walls
i noe i told myself i won let it out
but its starting to pound so hard i have to release them
release them of their suffocation
and mine
purging out the thick lumps that formed in my throat
i hurled them out hard
i forced out my pent up anger
feeling so broken makes me wanna break things
hurting still dead objects feels good

but i don want to
i stopped
but once i get reminded of what he says
i start the fuss all over again
water washed me clean
water washed my tears
water washed the filthiness of words that were thrown at me
water filled my stomache

i don need food
i don need anything

i just need to get the unstately looking me looking better
and i will go to work as i do everyday

i will be normal
i will be strong
i will be okay

i will

but now

i am not sure

bloggiNg is wHeRe i haVeN't beeN to for almost a moNth

2005-08-04T00:17:00.001+08:00

aN encoUnter with teRmites...
thats a goOd one to start off the weEk
and from an almost-30day break from typing iin my blog

to start with the bugsy teRmites
paul, one of my collegue spotted one termitey last 2 weeks crawling on a sheet of A4 on his worktable
freaking out he called us on to show his remarkable find
its remarkable really..
as its my first time seeing a termitey (live,crawling)with my naked eyes
it has a whitish yellowish appearance making it the albino cousin of the regular ants
and.. whitish yellowish
tot it was closer of a kin to the maggots though
yikeys!
so..
just two days ago..
i walked into the office as it were any other regular day
i greeted jessie at the door, like any other regular day
but this isnt any regular day it isnt! sobs

i don see jacky holding a feather duster on a regular monday
or paul furiously banging the keyboard upside down
whats the spick and span aNd hustling and bustling
an early spring cleaning madness??
this peeps gone outta their heads?
this is no regular sleepy monday cos as i lean down to catch something that seemed glistening on the matt surface of my table
there lies a live teRmittey writhing pitifully on my desk, it must be a longfall from the ceiling boards or he'd wouldnt land on his back poor termitey
i let out a gasp and start juMping like a packet of burSting popcorns
i look like an absolute mad person
paul wasnt v helpful
he stood and laughed (muahahahas?) at me a whole good five mins
but helped me clean the desk as i recollect my composure
but just as i see another termitey i go mad all over again

and then it was ken;s turn to laugh at me
they tOok turns laughing at me
and sometimes they laughed at ME all at the same time
so thats a lot of noise that same day
me jumping and screaming andlaughing then almost crying
and them laughing at my jumpy antics
and my boss cracked up too
guess they r wondering how a city gurl could survive in rural area like sg buloh
lmao.
hhaa
i wonder too

and they just keep laughing at slightmovements
a slight brush
stamping my feet shaking off some imaginary crawling termiteys
and whole lot stampeding sound on the floors when the crawly sensation starts to feel a lil too real
basically they enjoyed the scene when they see this city gurl breaking into a dance when she feels an itch or crawly somewhere imaginarily

and then today i went in
more termiteys on tables till we have to shift the pcs out of the working studio
and a cat that felled a ceiling board near the pantry (darns)!!!

a place full of pest
and SuRpriSes!

...!!!!

just as i was checking the tables if there were dead(or alive termiteys)
a snooppy cheeky ken came from behind and gave me a soft bOo fr the baCk of my shoulder!
daRn! that really made me jumped
jumped the wits outta my skin
just whacked him for what seemed like a longtime but couldnt help it but burst into gigglesmyself
daRnedest things happened today but this is far by the worst
i cant help but think a large termitey gave me that fright as i was so engrossed watchiNg out for one. don want one to come landiNg on my hair when i wasnt lOoking
and mind.. they feed on woOd but they also bite
paul has a termitey bite, (which he got that same morniNg) its turned into aN ickle bruise by lunchtime wheN i checked it
and jacky had a termite landiNg on her hair leaving some termitey trail im sure whe wouldnt forget
and that horrible stoRy louis made up about one getting into ur hair
and by the rate of multiplication u will be soOn be hosting a colony of termiteys! (arGhhhhs!)

the exterminators coming in tomolos
and hope the milky ants are *deleted* for good
don want them walking all over above out heads and reducing the place to crumBs

crosses fingers (1,000,000 X)

i don wanna go to workplace the nextweek me turning the place upside down with my unbearable noise-making machine
think they will consider firing if they cant bear it
fancy a pinkedface lil monkey jumping and monkey_giggling all over the place

some pest that needs a pest exterminatoR
or a firm turned into a zoo?

criNg3

2005-07-10T15:49:00.000+08:00

i cried at the mere sight of a black worm today
dunno why i did it
but its slick black shiny body writhing filled with unimaginable liquid made me cringe
i screamed for a continuous 15 mins pausing a milisecond (am exaggerating ere) to catch my breath ( poor gal)
but the image keeps flashing and only way to block it from appearing was to scream
and jump
and dance around like an excited monkey (onlythis is an upsetted one, lost his banana i guess)
i ran upstairs, my bro looking at me with an expression written *what the heck is REALLY wrong with this gurl* i lOok at him with doleful eyes, now wateRy
and start bursting into tears, though they werent exactlythe ones u shed cos u were sad or sth
rather traumatized what happened like precisely a week ago.
sobs
it went on like a few minutes then i jumped up wiping off the tears, laughing at my ridiculous behaviour
went out to lunch
should have seen the way my parents reacted earlier
i acted like i was in a fit or sth
*embarassing*
the image of food send waves of nausea to my head onto my tongue down to my tummy and rocketed back to my head
so in the end
not only did i NOT have lunch
i accompanied my sis home (cos she's sick to her tummy too - must be the brunch)
and well
a tiny black worm
really did spoil my day
it does feel like crying again now
though i'd really like the laughing part after that
laugh it off
laugh at myself
laugh it away

silly me!

if only it were as simple as laughing it off
laughing it away
........

sighs

wiNged sPaRrow sized motH bReediNg seAson

2005-07-05T23:31:00.001+08:00

as i was walkiNg back to my car after collecting my punchcard i was shocked to see a giant moth perchiNg on the passenger's door.
it was sitting neatly on the handle witH wings so demurely resting on the car's exterior.
If they had been given a brighter hue these winged creatures wouldnt look at all eerie, not to mention its mattted powder black wiNgs a stark contrast to my shiny silver kembara. well but then if it were colourful then it wouldnt be categorized a moth. a few minimal lighter strips arranged vertically across its wings, plain!
its right rear wing was slightly torn, probably a result of tear and wear flying all the way from FRIM to stalk me.. perasan...lol

i stepped into the car as quietly and lightly as i could as if it would awaken the car, keeping fingers crossed the huge insect willnot find its way INTO my car,much traumatized oredy when saw it RESTING ON my car.... -_-' goshhh. i baRely started my car when the grey shape start fluttering, anyone would have mistaken its size for a sparrow's, only the gracefulness of the flight that made it possible to differ it from the spaRrow's.. watched it flew into the distance, its greyness dimnishing into the evening dim-ness,..... then started my way back, with relief... phews

meets up witH pRem at the curve approX 8 with dee alonGside as my escort haha ( oways has been and will be for another year!) hads diNner at wiNter waRmeRs.. :) coincidentally it themed well witH the temperature yesterday evening, theRe was a crisp coolness that hung in the aiR and we chose a seat under the ceiling fan outdoORs! think we are suppose to be smart enough to order sth warm but i ended up with a mixfruit tea cocktail, which was suRprisiNgly sweet and fruity albeit not the sickly syRupy sWeet way. do not noe how i will put it, but it tasted genuine.,, with slices of apple orange and lime swiMming in a charming glass jug! it pours from jug into cocktail glass.. quaint!~ :)

dee had an iced rose latte, which i find too bitter for my sweet tooth (or rather tongue). clever of her requesting for rose syrup to milden the bitter tang. note that rose syrup actually tasted like concentrated rose-flavored glucose that u can buy from sundry shops in tins.ones that come in fine powder to be mixed with water. haha u get what i mean...

preM left his pasta untouChed ( like.. kinda?) cos i think he toOk a bite or so theN he spent the remaiNing time waiting for me to finish up my meal and great deal talking too :) no one told him to have 2 thosais before comIng haha! altogether a pretty cool gettogether, although there were just 3 of us. havent sat down a good long 2 hours chatting away like we used to, miss those times in college...........

reaChed home aPProx 10-30 after drOppIng dee home and came online right away. guess i was hopIng to bump into a certaiN someoNe but he mustbe tucked in some other realm now i guess :)

am off to sleep myself. me needs me beauty sleeps....

zzzzzzzz

biweekly visits

2005-07-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

meaNt to riSe early for a morNing walk neaR aunt helen's but manage only to drag myself up apProx 8-25! -_-" muSt have beeN that maCareNa yesterday. i recall myself iN my own piCture wiNdoW paiNtiNg an iMagiNary shuYii flappINg frantiCally like a new bird learning how to fly. (i hear myself scReaMiNg too......eishhh eMbaRaSsments-- reds-- )dunno how it spReaded all the way to tHe back of my shoulders, stiffeniNg the joints of right and left causing me to straighten up mucH more often thaN my visits to the loo. lOose sCrews after the exaggerated macaRena? i Hope not.....

tHis is tHe suMmarY of what i did toDay
reach work by 9-03~!! got a whole stack of punchcards from jessie (but only used one ofcos!) duped..
working on the faBricretail. (still) sighs.. dying to get out of this assign, shall worK harder to complete it so i'll get a new one..hmm
figured wHerE i wanna go all weeKend fINALLY!!!!! wanted to pay a visit to tHe row of shops oN jalan TAR for some ideas_shopping... dangz i ve got all weekend but i lost it.... :(
had chiCkeN riCe in sg.bulOh (agaiN!) witH beanspouts ipoh_style! :) shoRt fat juicy succulent sprouts, yuMmiessss......
caMe home meaNt to go aunt helen's for EveniNg walk but tak jadi oso cos the sun did not wait for me..... >.<

my tiRed paiR of wiNgs gave me an excuse to leave early today but surprisingly after dinner it did quite feel loosened. not giving it an oppOrtunity to come back, am listening to jinsoon and gets me sUuficients sNoozlesss..... zzz

nitess peePs! ;>

haha

2005-07-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

adopt your own virtual pet!

psd-ed cRazy!!

2005-06-22T03:32:00.000+08:00

gRaNny sMitH cRaze!!! muaKsSs aPplegReeN, like it on VW!! :)

bLocKiNg my seNseS

2005-06-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

montHly issue came today,
this is the time of the month i get miserable but
fortunately with the amount of worK occupying my time leaving no rooM to thInk of pain
is helping

it starts to feel when i stopPed beiNg busy
and stops feeling when i was chattiNg up witH a fren ysternite

been replaying the enya *fake albuM* - Sumiregusa for a bout a few tiMes now,only stops to pause when supervisor indicating wanting a woRd with me..... so distractiNg huh

it skiPs at traCk no.6 - Never whiCh is my fav. tracK so faR so am wantiNg to get it changed at nightmaRket possiBLy toDay. reason i said so FAR is i was crazing about Wild Violet when i heaRd it in enya.com abt a month ago but am starting to like Suddenly Yours (in Now Playing box)

find it quite too mellow in the beginning but the melody starts getting easy to get accustomed to after the 3rd play. its touchiNgly soft, a lil melancholic, but also swEet. could taste it on my tongue, like a painkiller slowly taking its effect - doink

coming home smelling like tobacco, as i haVe since 3 weeks ago...
eUuwwsss.................
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2005-06-07T01:42:00.000+08:00

currently listening to :: ewan mcgregor and nicole kidman's *come what may*
couldnt believe this was the same guy who appeared in star wars: episode 3 lately

he's actually got a pretty good siNging voice, unlike the kayu-ness in his tone in revenge of the sith, **tee hee*

and not to mention he was clean-er shaven in moulin rouge

revenge of the sith he look like a jedi master---only
ah pek style..... teehee

have been busy at work doing the renderings,
and one took about 3 hours which stalled me till about 7 pm,bwEks

i am INSTALLING 3d studio max into my pc once i get hold of the cd,hmmphs!!

at the moment i have to make do with what i have and try presenting it in the most presentable manner i could

goiN back to my comfY box of fluFfs, nites

---xoxoxoxoxo------

tiReds

2005-06-05T20:59:00.000+08:00

i recalled teling someone i was crying while singing when i broke it off with my ex,but couldnt remember which song was it i was singing. well today i remembered,when i was hearing a soNg similar to that one

fUnny how certain songs bring out the emotion that weRe oNce felt , even it occuRed years ago where u are most likely to have forgotten it lIke foRgettiNg a simple thing like what u want to say! :) and how vividly it was pictured, from the saltiness of the tears to the pufFiness of ur eyes and the soUnd of raiN that pOured and beated against the window on a nite, clock reads 9 -30 pm. and a study light was the only tHing that lit the dark interiors of tHe roOm, while i was trying to keep myself from crying only to let out soft sobs accompanying the night rain......

in case u are wondering, it was a sonG by jessica.simpsons :: it all sounds so silly and phony now. the song don mean a thiNg to me now, not the way i use to feel towards the song or the person once upon a time ago. being able to relate to that same feeling : denial,depRessed,cold,neglected doesn't make me the same person i was 4 years ago. i aM merely able to feel/recall it in a new identity,lOoking at it liKe i was lOokiNg at tHe other person. and it does make me smile thinking abt it now despite the bittertears that i cried allover it then. i smiled and laughed at the silly naive little girl who didn't know how to let go off the things that arent wortH keeping. memories that made u who u weRe once_upon_a_time,and the old u who made u who u are today......why.. thats not so bad i guess. all a part of the learning journey.

i still like the song (though memories are stuck fast permanent)
but i guess i like it still because i have faith in how i feel
and i trust i could find that special someone someday,if nottoday or tomorrow :P

and i believe in good things and bad that happen for a reason, regardless of how stuBborn/or a pessimist u aRe at that moment of occurence.

i guess time can only tell ......

_anotHeR hectiC day_

2005-06-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

got quicktime ledies!!! i aM so hapPPPPy! (thanks paul!)

all the more to worK on, and loads more waiting to be done. left oFfice apProx 6 sth,calling home to only be told that dad's out for weddingdinner, bro at freN's bbq leaviNg me and 2 sis to fend for ouRselves for dinner.

went to one.u after given the botH much time deciding while waiting foR me to comeback foR jam near sg buloh exit is nastily heavy appRox 6. i had to skip junction by junction to find one where there are less congestion so i could cut right against the traffic onto the left side of the road. touChed down @home approx 7,changed into freshclothies and off we go again. anotheR jam while getting into one-u. i once used to dread driving then i got to love it cos it gets me to places w/out counting on parents and at times like this its taxing, and here is my 17-year_old sis talking about driving sitting next to me. -_-" blimeys

heaved on a lasagna(which i share with meng, glad i did!) but regretted i didnt take sth lighter. feel like a bloated phyton slithering all over the floors of one.u witH my sis pHengs beiNg indecisive of wHere to go next. dangz

thiNk we went a lil far into the old wing then i voiced making a u turn cos car is parked in the new wing. meant to go foR a drink at woNgkok but were greeted and told the kitchen was closing. dangs for phengs, her facial expression really tells it all. was making fun of the waitress who mumbled like a chuffing train.. *%^*#$@)*^..... sorry* actually we *kinda heard* "our kitchen is closing now,sorry" but she chuffed her way through telling us-lah, like wanting us to leave in a chuff oso *bweks waitress* as a very pissed phengzers pulls her trademark expression. ((haha))

decided to leave for home siNce we have noNe other plans,time reads 10pm anyway. reached home finding ourselves the earliest hoMe! installed illustrator 10 onto pc, did a lil rendering and now here i m! :) yawnsss

well --------------------------------

atleast i don have to work tomolos!!!

teehee

_vw rendering w/out quicktime_ disH*!

2005-06-03T00:05:00.000+08:00

:+ 2nd june 2005+ :
started on my vw rendering this mornIng,have yet to finalise my design, still trying different options foR showcases display.

went out lunch today foR fiRst tiMe with collegues 2day.droVe all the way to sg buloh town just to have mixed rice,and isnt cheap...... -_-"

.. tried rendering a few more to see the lighting effects,then *whaM* wanna export image only realise no quicktime to support that task,and the textures arent showing in thumbnails so i gotta apply ONE by one just to see how it lOoks like_dish. must remember to ask paul (my collegue) for quicktime liaos......

went to one.u today foR iDeas shoPping,called dee earlier 3 times and a txt but no reply. bro's been complainiNg about missIng notebOok foR 2 wEeks now and cant tahan hiM cOMplainIng witH my dad overheariNg. ends up spendiNg a whole chunk of the tiMe dinner-iNg at a newly-opened bbqplace_Bar BQ plaza inthe newphase, i have to tell u they have sth special there _hmms very nicely scruBbed shiny hotplate_ :P its actually a round shiny plate with the midDle slightly raised foR u to cOok the assortment of chicken_pork_beef meats (they forgotten te fish somehow) and on all around the sides is a narrow indented longkang filled with a lightchicken stock to boil the finely shredded cabbage(yums!),sliced carrots,(okays) and whole babycorn (euuws) lol. went hoMe appRox. 11 30 after collectiNg noteboOk (pHews*)...

....tired fr sittIng infront of warmchicken-stock-flavoredvapours constantly bubbling in ur face all nite..goOdnite doInks!!!

bakIng iN the mornIng rays

2005-06-01T20:49:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7 am sharp,an insanely houR to Rise to get urself ontime to worK oN the fiRstday,but nonetheless thrilling,eHe, the anticipation

fuNny how i used to dread graduating cos i fear lOOking for a jOb,and probably findiNg none and even if i did, dread the saMe dead stagnant environment..... *yikeys*

toDay staRted pRetty well, worN my cardigan and halter(as prOmised, tee hee), had alightbreakfast, light incense on all the altars and received a lucky redpacket fr parents :P

and start off at a ridiculous 8 am!!!! thankfully reaches workplace by 8-17am and sorta waited till jessie (the receptionist open the dOOrs!) sittiNg in my caR (locked) sucking on a *chocful* waitinG waiting..till the sun rises la i suPpose. sun in sg buloh i dunno is exceptionally panas or wat-laH, but it felt like i waited all mORNING!

fiRst day but got *assignment* liao!!! given by mR chester hiMself ofcos!:P design a crystal shop with no paRticulaR concept/layout for a start!... theN lOuis (my senior-senior designer)came in and briefed me about dsx_a smaller scale of Diesel. well luckily i told louis i was given tHe crystal shop to prOpose oTheRwise i have to foLLow two projects at a tiMe, without even noeing i don have to

day cut shoRt when the pc men came in to send 2 (or was it 3) new pcs. i aM one of the lucky 2 (or was it 3) who gets to use the new pc btw! *smirks* ended up installiNg all the needed softwares and finisHing eveRything by about 5 then i left at 5-30! pHewS!

tomorrow -->>
won't be silly to wake up at 7
and won't leave home at 8
and won't reach office by 8-17 looking around for living soul to help me unlock the system ((haha))